I woke up, my eyes were dry and crumbly from my dried-up tears.
It was already 11 am.
Mom said she was going to call me in sick today for school.
She said I deserved some time to mourn.
I don't deserve anything.When you wake up, you have a few split seconds where everything is forgotten.
But like a tsunami, it all comes back to hit you twice as hard.I heard mom coming up the stairs.
A soft knock on my door.
"Amy, Honey? I'm heading off to work now."
I wanted to stay silent, but I think she would've come in, if I didn't say anything.
"Okay. Bye mom."
"Bye sweetie."
I sat up in bed. I waited until I heard mom's car drive away.I didn't want to do anything. I just wanted to lie down. But I can't.
If I didn't do anything, my mind would constantly think about Rose and what kind of idiot I am.I got out of bed and walked downstairs.
I filled my cereal bowl with cornflakes and milk and sat down with a spoon.
However, I couldn't get two bites in.
This is what drove Rose crazy, food, she was obsessed with it. She didn't want to eat anything. She wanted to be thin.I just couldn't eat. I put the bowl in the fridge, thinking I would eat it later.
The rest of the day I spend watching Netflix series. Gilmore girls always makes me feel better, but I knew it wouldn't help this time.
I watched horror films, they made my life seem not so bad.It was really warm outside. Summer vacation is starting soon.
My parents wanted to go on vacation, I don't think I want to.
Rose said I could slumber at her house over the summer.
I do remember she wanted to try out for lifeguard duty.
Maybe I should?
It would get my out of my funk. Rose wanted to, I could do it for her instead.I walked upstairs to change out of my pyjamas into some sweats.
My reflection in the mirror was staring at me. I looked back.I am kind of chubby.... If I want to be a lifeguard, I need to look good in a swimsuit....maybe I need to lose some weight. Just a few pounds.
Little did I know, that was the beginning of hell.
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Teen Fiction"I fell into darkness but I didn't mind, I liked it." Amy Adams thought everything was alright, but when she heard her very best friend Rose committed suicide, her world turned upside down. Amy couldn't understand, why? But Amy found Rose's diary at...