My Endgame

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Staring down from the balcony, i could only imagine one thing. What if i jump from here? Will i regret doing it? Will anyone care? And the answer is yes. No. Not my father. Not my mother. But he will...

You know there is a rule of love.

'Never fall in love with your bestfriend'

But guess what I didn't really followed it. I did fall in love with First. I mean how could I not? he was caring, loving kind. Nothing in him was what I hated. No matter how tired, sad or frustrated I'm, I'll always look forward at him and at the next moment I'm smiling. He understood me like no one ever did.

I wish I could tell him

'your the only one who understands'

....
"Here I am" I called out loud enough for First to hear me.
He came towards me with his doe eyes, puffed lips and those silky smooth hair falling on his eyes.

"Sit up" i gestured him to sit behind on the bike.

"Do we have class together?" I asked him while focusing on the road.

"No, but you gotta drop me home too. I'm not taking cab, you know i get car sick. You remember it right thung?"

I smile a little at his question. Was there anything about him that i didn't remembered?

"Ofc, I do fir"

People always said I was rude or you can say everyone said that except for First. He always described me as a sweet loving guy. Which I was not. I hated people except First. I hated if someone sat on my bike exept if it was First. I hated when someone touched me expect if it was First. I hated if someone messed or controlled me but First can do whatever he wants.

It was weird how I liked everything as long as it was him. We both were so different yet so similar to each other.

...
"I'll leave for my lecture" First said while I was removing his helmet.

He wasn't my friend but my kid you can say.

"Okay, i don't have lectures now so I'll sit in the cafeteria" I stayed there until First disappeared from my sight.

I pulled out my phone calling Neo

"Where are you?"

"Behind you"

I turned around looking at neo, parking my bike.

"Let's go sit in the cafeteria" I moved towards the cafeteria.

"Bro we have lectures after 1 hours and only one which i decided to bunk but here I'm 1 hours early for you."

"First had his lectures. so we have to come early. Now let's go"

....
Sitting in the cafeteria we were having some snacks scrolling through our phones.

"Do we have to wait after lectures too?" Neo asked.

"No. I don't think First has his lectures after that. so you can leave"

"So I'll leave alone again?"
Not replying to his question i kept scrolling through my Instagram.

"Come on khaothung. How many years are u gonna waste on First? He likes ohm."

My hand paused as i looked up at Neo

"Feel good that you are my friend. Because after that statement I don't think anyone would have been alive"

"After what statement? First liking someone else?"

"Tsk, no. Me wasting time on First. Every time i spend with him is the most precious one. Let's go it's time for our lecture."

It was not that i wasn't ready to accept First was in love with someone else but I was sad how First never saw me the way I did maybe because he always had his eyes on ohm.

...
"Thung?" I looked at the mirror of the bike gesturing I was listening to him

"I'm planning on confessing to ohm. Do u think it's a good Idea?"

I felt my world stop. All this years it was just me and him. I never let my friends to mend in our personal space but if First got a boyfriend will he drift away from me?

"Thung I'm asking you something"

"If you think it's the right time maybe you should after all you have liked him for 10 years."

10 years, weird right? Childhood crush is what First called him. He always said the moment he saw ohm he felt that they were meant to be. Would he feel the same if I had met him before ohm?
I regret not meeting him before.

"Yea, do u think he likes me?"

The whole campus knew there was something between ohm and First because ohm always bothered him. So does that mean ohm likes him?

"How would I know. Maybe you should ask him himself"

I stopped the bike as we reached his home
He got off the bike standing infront of me.

"I will ask him" he said as i removed his helmet.

As soon as First left my sight. The smile I was faking all along dropped.
Am i going to lose my bestfriend? I wish I could just snatch him away from the world keeping him in my embrace and shower him with my love. But i can't. He didn't belonged to me but himself. And right now he wanted Ohm. More than me.

Tbc.

Author's note
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