My Endgame

~2~

"so, how do u feel about it?" Neo asked, sipping his coffee.

"I don't know. I feel...weird. I mean I'm happy that he is finding his way ahead in life but, I'm scared."

"Scared? Khaothung you can also get scared?"

A deep sigh left my mouth"i don't know. As long as he's happy"

I had no idea what I was feeling myself. I loved First but I never asked anything from him in return, except for him being by my side even if means as friends.
But now that he was moving one step forward with the person he liked. it scared me. It scared me that he will drift apart from me. I never had problem with him liking ohm because i loved him and it was my fault I fell in love with my bestfriend. And that doesn't gave me a reason to interfere in his life. His life was his and I was no one to mend in it.

"Khaothung!" I was brought back from my thoughts.
I looked at neo with a 'what' expressions.

"Do u think ohm will accept First? Because it's not even a year ohm and nanon seperated" neo was right.

Ohm nanon were famous for their love for eachother. Everyone adored them. And it was impossible for ohm to get over their breakup this easily.

"I have no idea...." I said, continuing drinking my coffee

...
"Thung, I'm going to tell ohm about my feelings. Will you be there with me?"

I looked at him before smiling. "When?"

"Around 2. He said he'll be free at that time"

"I don't really think I can, First. I have lectures at 2." His smiled dropped.

"You said you'll be with me everytime I ask you but, now you are making excuses" 

"I'm sorry I can't make it today. But I'll pick you up afterwards you can tell me everything at that time. What say?"

He walked away sulking without looking back.
Sorry, I just couldn't. How could I right? I am in love with you.

...
It was 2:30 maybe First was now confessing his love for ohm.

"Where are u lost?" Neo asked placing his hands on my shoulders.

"It's 2:30"

"I don't think ohm will accept First because ohm loved nanon back then alot remember?."

Neo tried giving me hope. But it was true ohm and nanon were boyfriends for 3 years but then they suddenly broke up without any reason. Everyone in the campus were shocked by the lovely dovely couples split up.

"Don't say like that. First will be embarassed and heartbroken if he gets rejected today" i continued my writting.

"what exactly do u want? You love First and are thinking about his confession here. But you want him to get accepted and live happily with ohm?"

Not replying to his question i continued my work.

What was i supposed to say when i myself was confused with my behaviour. Loving First was as simple as breathing because he was my bestfriend, i never had the feeling of sharing him all this time. But now suddenly someone entering his life was making me uncomfortable. but wasn't this exactly how i knew it was going to be? First was someday going to have his own person and the day was here so why was it bothering me now?

"Why don't you confess him?" Neo's questioned making my eyes so wide.

"Because I'm not crazy. I clearly know he doesn't like me. He has always only seen ohm throughout his life. If i confess I'm gonna lose him and i won't let that happen"

"First is understanding you know that right? He will maybe understand your feelings and accept you"

"Even if that happens, it will be forced. If i tell him and he accepts me because he pity me, that will suck more than me being rejected."

Neo looked at me expressionlessly. "Daym khaothung. I never knew a cold person like you can be so selfless. I'm proud of u my friend"

A chuckle left my mouth as I hear his words.

"Hey! khaothung, here you are. I was looking for you" Looking at Mark (first's friend) standing infront of my desk i was confused.

"I mean First is looking for u. He said he'll be in cafeteria, he wanted to meet you" i nodded my head without replying and getting up to leave. stopping at my place i turned towards mark.

"What happened between ohm and First?" Mark looked shocked as i never really communicated with him. I was always with Neo or First if it's a actual communication. others used to only hear one or two words from me nothing more.

"I have no idea. I asked him but he said he wants to inform you before anyone."

Leaving the room with disappointment I was ready to console First. Like Neo said even I was sure that ohm will never accept First because of nanaon. Atleast that was what I thought.

...
Moving inside the cafeteria. I spotted First sitting on a table.
I sat down infront of him sipping from his can of soft drink.

"So?" I asked.

First looked at me without any expressions. I kept the can down getting ready to console him for his heartbreak.

"Look First it's fine. You will get som-"

"He accepted my praposal" First said all of the sudden making me go blank.

He was smiling wide looking at me.
"He accepted my praposal, thung! I will finally have ohm as my boyfriend like i always dreamed of"

He was finally having ohm as his boyfriend. Like. He. Always. Dreamed. Of.

Tbc.

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