Saving Sin

Chapter 7

I didn't rush through the doors like I thought I would . I casually marched up the steps and closed the door slowly behind me.

Mars was in the living room cleaning a gun and I rolled my eyes.

"Babe I -"

I rushed into him pressing a finger too his lips and replacing the finger with mine.

He didn't hesitate to kiss me back and I grabbed the collar of his shirt.

"Come on."

My voice was a whisper but it held steely determination. He didn't hesitate to follow me but he also held onto the handgun.,

I drug him up the steps to our bedroom and pushed him down onto the bed.

I crawled on top of him taking my hands and ripped the muscle shirt he was wearing in two.

I straddled his waist before dipping my head down. Kissing him all over and dragging my nails along his arms,he shivered. I smiled against his skin and when I found a comfortable enough position, I let out a deep breath and laid on his chest.

Mars chuckled lightly, the vibrato of his voice rumbling against my ear. One hand lazily running through my hair while the other held the small of my back tightly.

He kissed my forehead before saying

"It's okay Sin, whenever you're ready,we can talk about it."

I smiled softly. The hardness of his chest a familiar and loved contrast to the smooth skin of my face.

I looked up at him.

"I met someone today."

His eyes widened and his brows rose expectantly. His arms wrapped around me and his fingers dug into my skin tightly . Almost claiming me, refusing to let me go, telling me I was his.

"His names King and I think he's Alejandro's son. Baby I jumped back in to protect Kenny Cat, but everywhere I've turned, someone's been here to hurt us. First Quentin of all people and now this, I can't help but think I was better off when I was out. Yeah I got attacked but it was never close to home. I always managed to keep Kennah out of it. Quent made shit personal and I don't like it."

"If you think you made the wrong choice coming back , leave. I'll be here protecting the two of you like I've always done. If you feel you wanna stay then babe I'll be here. Whatever you decide I will be here , because I love you."

He pulled me up to him, kissed me all over , my cheeks, my forehead, lips , chin, everywhere. When he stopped he looked up at me and smiled.

"I got you babe , I'll always have you, the both of you ."

I blew out a deep breath, eyes watering and head pounding.

"I know that baby but he's in my class and he knows who I am. I'm not afraid for myself I'm afraid for our daughter . I can't have her living in a war-zone . If Ryder's son has taken an interest in me its only a matter of time until the bullets fly. She's my daughter, she doesn't deserve to have that."

"You've been free for months and the alley was probably a coincidence, some man who saw your body and just felt the urge to claim it. Baby you're beautiful and you're going to attract attention. Those men who came to the apartment, they were gang members and they worked for Quent . You've been able to take care of yourself and I understand you were overwhelmed and wanted to feel safe so you jumped back in, but if you're doubting Kennah's safety ,leave -no ones going to judge you."

He drew lazy circles against my skin, my goosebumps apparent and I rested my head back against his chest.

" I want to be in the gang, the protection that comes from being apart of this is necessary. I won't jump out but I don't think I can live here anymore . I keep throwing Kennah in a new world of circumstances and she doesn't need that. She was in love with our home, she was happy the only thing she missed was you . I'll talk to my father . "

"I'll scout for Ryder and his men later, right now you should sleep okay babe."

His hands are playing with the gun and I'm propped up on one arm watching him.

He rolls on top of me kisses my forehead before flicking off the lamp light and placing the gun on the night stand.

I can't sleep. My mind is on Ryder and wether or not I should believe him. I didn't tell Mars he saved me in the alley and I should have. It's not like I was keeping secrets I just never got the chance to.

It was almost like I had split personality disorder . When I was Kai, I was exactly like my mother sweet and loving and protective of my daughter but when I was Sin, I was violent and cruel and like my father. I didn't want to be that girl I just wanted to be Kai who had Sin tendencies but it didn't happen that way.

I had trouble balancing my emotions and that's part of the reason I put my full focus on Kennah. She kept me grounded, gave me a reason to fight the good fight and be a better person . She was innocent and beautiful and deserved a mother who was the same.

I didn't want my past to dictate her future and Mars completely agreed with my decisions.

It was hard at first , giving up the life I had always known but I knew that once she was born , having her live in this would be harder.

I had jumped out before she was born and she had always lived in the apartment. For the first three years of her life she was stable and safe. She didn't know what danger was out there and the second I let her spend the weekend with my father, she was exposed.

I didn't blame him for what she saw but the nightmares that came after were his fault entirely . She was young and in time she would forget all together but I would never.

Mars was shot pushing her out the room and she was only old enough to know that her daddy was hurt.

The reason I was always so against coming back is because when Kennah was involved, things got twice as dangerous for everyone.

She was Kryptonite to a gang of Supers.