Professor || J.Jk × Reader

14. Confused, No More

I exited the cab wishing the driver a good day before paying him as I looked around the cafe. Wooden fences surrounded the whole garden as the diner was surrounded by the greens. 

     I hoped for all the best to happen today, although I had declined hyun of his offer of me being his girlfriend but I cant help feel the butterflies that are fluttering in my stomach. I cant describe what I'm feeling in  words.

I'm confused with my heart to say the least. One time I'm thinking of Hyun but the other is full of thoughts about his twin. With all the intimate time that we've spent with each other is crazy and is making me one as well. 

But right now I need to focus on what I've came for.

Entering the cafe , I messaged him about my arrival to let him know and he told me to look for him near the corner tables.
I waved I saw him, waving to me aswell.

"Thanks for coming Yn and giving me a chance specially when I broke your heart such bad". He said

"It's no big deal Hyun! really" I assured him.

"So what do you wanted to talk about?" I asked.

"Nothing serious y'know. I mean-

He was interrupted by the waiter who came to ask for our order.

We ordered coffee for each one of us as we got engaged in our casual talks. This whole trip either he was ignoring me or it was the other way around, which lead us into not even having some proper civil talks like we used to have. Only of we keep aside all the awkwardness and messed up feelings then I can't even describe the amount of moments when I missed him. Even though kookie was with me all this time it was still hard to move on from the fact that one of my best friend wasn't me to share one of my very first international trip.

   But I don't know how to feel about this. Surely I missed him but never in those seconds I regret being with kook instead. It's all just complicated.

The waiter again walked in with two mugs of coffee as he placed it on our table.

I was about to take a sip from mine but the grip made it slip from my hands and the steaming hot liquid was splashed on my dress, as the mug fell down.

I hissed in pain as I felt the burning sensation on my hands and knees as the hot coffee came in contact with that area. I abruptly stood up trying to smooth out the now wet and stained fabric while hissing in pain.

"Oh my god! Yn! You need to be a lil bit less clumsy" Hyun stated as he approached me with a few tissues in his hands to help dry out the dress.

I just rolled my eyes at him.

Muttering a small thanks I rushed into the bathroom to pour some cold water on the burns.

What exactly has happened to Hyun. Like instead of making sure if I'm
Okay or not he literally told me to be less clumsy.

I bet if it was jungkook in his place he would have had rushed to hospital by now.

Wait.

I did not just wished him to be here.

Ugh! I've gone crazy. And for this I blame my heart. And Jungkook.

Feeling a little better I wiped my hands with the paper towel as I exited the room. My dress is already spoilt and coming here was of no use. Hyun didn't even told me what he wanted to talk about.

But while making my way towards our spot. My mind was now clear of one thing that if it's going to be about me being his gf or something , I know the answer.

And, that my friends is a big no.

"You okay right?" Hyun asked as I sat infront of him.

"Oh yeah absolutely" I said.
Except the burning spot on my hand but i'mma let it be.

"Btw what is that you wanted to talk about?" I asked.

"You remember when I asked for you to be my girlfriend"

"I do but I'm sorry Hyun it's just not possible."

"It's okay well I apologise too".

For what?

"Actually Yn, I might like Jen and I just wanted to make sure that we're all clear before I approach her. You've been my best friend all my life. I know I hurt you but I never felt that way. And now I want to settle it all. I don't want us to have any strains in our bond y'know."

Ohk so honestly I never expected this but I guess it's for better only isn't it.

"Oh I totally understand that. I seriously have no problem with you and Jen dating now, trust me"

"I already had it figured out but I just wanted to make sure yn. I've already hurt you a lot and I don't want to hurt you all over again."

"It's alright Hyun. Don't worry about me. And if I'm being honest then I'm a lot confused at the moment"

"What is there to be confused about yn? Y'know that I'm still your bestfriend right, you can tell me what's bothering you and I'll try my best to help it".

"Actually...umm since you.yknow like you rejected me back in town I was so devastated. I thought about many ways to make you fall for me but then I guess in these past days I gradually accepted this. I accepted that love can't be forced. But it's just one thing and I could've never been over that pain if kook wasn't by my side. He helped a lot he really did but then the thing that's bothering me is that.. that I might have some feelings for him. I don't know. Does this makes me a bad person to like two people at the same time?" I asked him.

"Yn, if you like guk, like if you really do then the only advice I'll give you is to take time, confirm your feelings first and then if you're sure it's true I can assure you that you have nothing to worry about" Hyun let these words out of his mouth with a small smile, a genuine one.

But what does it mean. Does Mr coldy too feels something for me?

I can never be sure if I don't try my luck.

I'm not a girl to give up, although I know my feelings aren't that strong now but I'm sure they'll be soon if he continues to behave like this.

"Well thanks for the date Hyun. Gotta go. Bye!!" I bid bye as I rushed out of the cafe, back to our stay.