My Love from Heaven (Super Junior FanFic)

Chapter 19: The Beautiful Pain

[Donghae POV]

Since all of the other members still had their schedule, I volunteered to stay here in the hospital while waiting for Mitzi to be here. I was sitting on the chair beside Siwon's bed when the door opened and the doctor came in. I stood up and bowed slightly to greet him.

"Are you a family member?" he asked.

"Ani, I'm one of his bandmates, but his wife on his way here." I said.

"I see, but I still have an appointment in 10 minutes. Anyway, I would like to inform you that he should undergo chemotherapy as soon as possible to stop the cancer cells to spread in his brain or else, I'm sorry to say that he will only have 3 months to live." He said.

I actually don't know what exactly to feel right this moment. My knees felt weak but my whole body became numb and cold.

Why?

Not only with all of the years that we've been together, but also, we, not only have me, but all of us, treated him as our real brother.

But what makes the burden to me right now, is that, I'm th only one in the group who knows the real deal to this.

Yes..

I knew that hyung has a brain cancer.

After the doctor left in the room, I sat back again to the chair where I was sitted awhile ago, and this time, with a much heavier heart.

Minutes had passed and siwon slowly opened his eyes, he glanced at me at I hold his hand.

" Siwon, how are you? " I asked.

" I'm fine hyung, just a little dizzy? Where am i? where are the others?" he asked.

" they all had their schedule so I'm just the only here in the hospital." I said

I helped him to sit in his bed as I put more pillows to support his back.

" the doctor came in awhile ago. And I suppose you knew what he said." I said in a more sad and serious tone of voice.

It was visible in his eyes the pain and sadness that he kept on his heart.

"When are you planning to tell the others? Most especially Mitzi? No erase that, when are you planning to start your chemotherapy?" I was lost in my own words with all these emotions I had in me.

" I don't had any plans with it hyung." He plainly said.

" siwon, if you don't have that chemotherapy, you will only had 3 months to live? Did you just want to be like that?" I sternly asked.

" I will die in the end hyung, we both know that. So I didn't want to torture my body anymore with that therapy." He said as I noticed that he kept his tears from falling down his eyes.

" How about us? The members? The super junior? Your family? How about Mitzi? You're planning to leave this world just like that?" I asked.

" Hyung... I just can't...." he stuttering said as he now totally let go of his own tears.

I stood up and hugged him to comfort him as some tears also fell down from my eyes. I just can't visualize in my mind the fact that he will soon leave this world.

"ssshhhh... hush now.. it's okay..."

I felt pity to seem him in his vunerable state. I may not feel the physical pain that he had right now, but I could feel the emotional pain that is also going through right now. It was a battle that very hard to win in. that's one thing for sure.