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"You okay sweetheart? You haven't said much since we've started" Mrs.Jones asked me as I was pressing her hair.
"Oh- Yeah I'm okay, I'm okay." I said handing her a water bottle.
She opened it and took a sip, before saying "What's his name?"
I looked at her for a moment and said "Huh?"
"The new guy that has your mind drifting off. What's his name?" She asked.
Damn.
"Umm.. His name is Jesse." I said.
"Do you like him?" She asked.
"I do, a lot." I said.
"So why do you look sad or... I don't know, you just look down and out" Mrs.Jones said.
I sighed.
"It's just- I don't know how to feel. I really like Jesse a lot, he makes me feel good, we've been on lovely dates, he's so thoughtful and genuine. But I guess.. It's like- I don't know. Me and Trevante... I love Trevante and I always will. I guess I feel bad for moving on. I don't know" I said.
"You still love Trevante but you like Jesse. It's kind of like your heart battling your mind." Mrs.Jones said as I parted the front part of her hair and started pressing it with the hot comb.
"Yes. That's what it is. But Trevante, he has a situation right now that's not gonna be easy to get passed. I've let so much slide because I love him. But this situation, a baby might be his and might be on the way. And I don't know how to deal with that, you know?" I said.
"And what if the baby isn't his?" She asked.
"I don't know.. Because now Jesse is involved and he's amazing. I just- I'm gonna let things flow." I said.
"And don't you ever feel bad for being happy. It's not about nobody else but you. And you need to put yourself first for once. It's always been about that boy. He needs to know that it's not about him anymore, and he needs to get a glimpse of what it feels like to possibly lose you to somebody else." Mrs.Jones said.
"Yeah, I know." I said.
"So don't you ever feel bad okay? You're a gorgeous girl. With a heart of gold. He knew that when he cheated. He knew it when you guys broke up. And he knew it when he was running around here having sex with these girls out here. And now, you're talking to somebody you really like. Take your time and don't feel bad for it. Okay?" She said.
I smiled and said "You're right Mrs.Jones"
"Girl I know." She said and we both laughed.
"Thank you. I needed this talk, seriously." I said.
I haven't even talked to my mom about it, so talking to Mrs.Jones was like a breath of fresh air. And I needed it.
