𝐚𝐭𝐞𝐞𝐳 𝐢𝐦𝐚𝐠𝐢𝐧𝐞𝐬

san ♤ frat boy (bonus chapter)

Word count: ±1600

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San's POV

The heart wants what it wants.

Isn't that what they always say? To some extent, I have always agreed with this statement. Yes, the heart wants what it wants, but if you realise that your desire is unattainable, then you can make your heart let go as well, even if it's hard or painful to do so. At least, that's what I thought until y/n stepped into my life.

Yes, when I first saw y/n, I desired her. In a way Yeosang would kill me for if I ever admitted it out loud — physically. I was not at all in love. In fact, I did not even intend to fall in love with her. As bad as it sounds, I only desired her body. Yet, the more time I spent in her presence, the more things about her I came to desire. Her trust, her support, her time, her laughter, her touch, her love. My desire accumulated, even to a point where it felt like love and to a point where I fell in love. (It's strange how unexpectedly you can fall in love, isn't it?) And even though y/n played hard to get, and even though that should have been the realisation that my desire was unattainable, I yearned.

After all, the heart wants what it wants.

Last night, after we had gotten back to our hotel room, I remembered how, upon our first meeting, I had felt like y/n and I were bound to become more than just acquaintances. More than friends, if we were to reach that stage. I know now that I was right — however, time will tell the full truth. I may have her now, and I may be able to call her mine, but only in time will we be able to tell if we were truly meant for each other. If our relationship will withstand the test of time and if we will spend the rest of our lives together. Gosh, I sound like Cupid had shot an arrow through my heart; one that he had made sure to put extra cheesiness onto. If any of the boys hears me now, they'll never stop teasing me about it. Being in a relationship makes you say stuff you never thought you'd say, huh?

It's all still so new and exciting and scary, this relationship business. I don't mean that I've never been there before, but with every relationship you always start anew. So, no matter how much experience you have, there will always be an exhilarating yet shaky beginning. But the difference is the way you approach it. In all my relationships, I cannot remember one where I felt completely sure that things would work out. But now, I do feel like there's a good chance. There's something about y/n that captivates me and makes me feel like I don't ever want to let her go.

She was scared that she would fall, but I don't think I would ever let her fall. I will try my best not to let her fall.

I want to show her that our relationship isn't just a game to me. It will be a commitment.

It's so strange how I already feel so protective of her. Maybe it's because of how intimate we had been last night, the way she had slept in my arms afterwards, or perhaps because I know that she's beautiful and other guys may try to steal her away. Of course, she needs the freedom to go about as she pleases, but I cannot help feeling like she is mine to protect. Her heart is mine to protect.

I definitely still have to get used to this feeling. It was always hard to imagine myself in a relationship, but this feels like it might just be the one I was waiting for. Even Seonghwa had told me that he thought she was the one for me, even before we got together. But I think what makes it most prominent that this was no coincidence is the fact that Yeosang indirectly gave us his blessing. Okay, he did initially vow to keep everyone away from y/n, but he was the one who told Wooyoung's friend at the bar that y/n had someone in her life. And when we ran into him on our way out of the club, he told us,

"It's okay, I know I can't stop you two from lusting after each other."

I think y/n was more surprised than me to hear that. Perhaps he'll become a supportive brother (and dare I say future brother-in-law?). He has always been soft at heart anyway.