the domestic violence advocate
dropped me off at the youth shelter
and told me to call if i needed any help
following up with the protection orderit made me grimace
i didn't want to think
about something like that
but it should be done
shouldn't it?regardless
here i amright where he abandoned me
with a condescending smirkthese are the streets persistently mocked
by all the incredibly privileged white people
i morphed myself into pleasing
with little success at the end of each attempt
they talked down on people
bundled up
pushing carts of their belongings
standing outside my dorm window
in front of brick buildings in blizzards
with needles and shaking handsstay away from people
with hoodies
who walk by you too quickly
those dope fiends
some of them fifteen years old
scum of the earth
society would be better off
without them polluting the citythat's what i heard
and nowa guy waves a dime bag to his friends
as he walks by mei can sense his eyes are lacking of something
but i cannot put my finger on it
not yethe possesses the kind of gaze
that won't care what horror
crosses his field of vision
because nothing can be worse
than what he's already seenand my first thought is
what is going to happen to me here?
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long gone (save me from this hell)
Poetryquatervois. trigger warning. highest rankings #2 in blackpoet #3 in spokenword #3 in prosepoetry seventh poetry collection (2024)