Forevermore - Lovertation

Afterglow

Song: Afterglow

1989

I went to sleep last night worried about Midnights. She could've just had an actual headache, like she said, or something else. I wanted to trust and believe her but a nagging feeling in my gut told me otherwise.

I lay in my bed staring at the ceiling contemplating my life for a while before dragging myself out of bed. I ran my fingers through my hair and tried to make myself look as though I hadn't been dragged through a bush 13 times before making my way to the kitchen.

The fridge and pantry were pretty empty, so I made a mental note to go shopping. After dumping some yoghurt into a bowl and adding cereal I sat down on a stool and looked out the window as I ate. There wasn't much happening on our street, the occasional dog walker and jogger passed by, likely on their way to the park.

Wow, she looks quite fit. I thought to myself as I watched a random woman walk along.

I wish I looked like her... no. We don't do that anymore. I am perfect just the way I am.

Words Midnights had once told me crept into my mind.

'You're so incredibly lucky to be you, we all love you so much and you're a key part of my life. I will always be here for you, always and forever my beautiful girl'.

A small tear disobediently slipped out of my eye. Midnights had always been there for me in my hardest times. This lead me to think, what the hell am I doing right now? While Midnights was struggling, I kicked her out. I had done the opposite of what she had done to me, and I kicked myself as I realised. I had to make it up to her, if she could ever like me back.

I decided to go and see if she was awake, which was highly unlikely. I put my bowl in the sink before heading upstairs to her room. As I passed Lover and Rep, I noticed they were lying next to each other on their sides and taking turns kissing each other's nose. I shook my head and chuckled to myself. 

When I got to Midnights' room, I knocked on her door politely. I didn't get a reply, which made sense as it was now 8 in the morning, so I just let myself in. Midnights was knocked out on her bed, fully clothed, including her shoes. I decided I would let her wake up by herself as she normally slept in for a while. I just walked up to her and gently pulled off her Converse, trying not to wake her. Midnights shifted slightly making me pause, luckily, she just kept sleeping. I watched her body rise and fall slowly, smiling to myself like an idiot.

After a few moments, I pulled her blanket onto her more before thinking fuck it and sliding in too.

I slowly wrapped my arms around her waist and tucked my face into her neck.

Midnights

A light snoring in my ear woke me up, making me freeze. Who the hell is in my bed? I rolled over and saw 1989's peaceful sleeping face next to me. I quickly realised I had fallen asleep with my clothes on, despite my shoes being on the floor, which I didn't remember taking off. A stab of pain hit my head as I sat up too fast and I groaned, causing 1989 to stir. I froze, waiting for her to go back to sleep, which she didn't.

'Shit, um, morning Mid' she mumbled quietly.

'Morning. Why are you in my bed?'

'Well, I came to check on you this morning and you were asleep in your clothes so basically I just took your shoes off and, well, yeah'.

'Right, -shit!' my head hadn't stopped pounding since I woke up, and it wasn't hard to figure out why.

'Are you ok?' 1989 asked, concerned.

'Um, not really, my head is killing me'.

'It was hurting yesterday too, wasn't it?'

'Wha? Oh yeah, it was. But never mind that, that still doesn't explain why you're in my bed'.

'Look, breaking up with you while you were struggling was probably one of the biggest mistakes of my life, you were with me every time I felt shit about myself, and I ditched you as you when you did. And for that, I'm so sorry'.

'You broke me, 1989. I fell deeper into my pit of depression than I already was, and it didn't help me at all. But I miss you so much'.

'I do too, I really hope you can forgive me, but I understand if you don't'. 

'1989, I need you more than ever right now, if you can help me out of this addiction, you have my full forgiveness'.

'I really want to help, and I'm willing to do anything for you'.

I bent down and kissed the blonde's soft lips, my eyes closed.

'I've been craving this' I mumbled into her.

'Me too'.

AN: Hey y'all! This was a random update I felt like doing, so here is a short chapter of Midnightsx1989 randomness. It is currently 3 am for me and I couldn't be bothered trying to sleep so here we are! I literally didn't realise how Afterglow coded this chapter is until like 1 second ago lol. Also, if this chapter has any errors, please don't mind it. I'm like brain-dead cos it's so late but yolo. Thank goodness for Grammarly! I'm also blasting reputation in my Airpods cos why not?