Guiltless / Theon Greyjoy

43. Crash

Love can kill /Sandor Clegane out now!

"This is a bad start to marriage." Rieka warned when Ramsay found her.

"This is a great start to a marriage." Ramsay corrected holding her face in his hands. He got close to her face breathing her in "You like it bloody. You want vengeance, you want what was rightfully yours." Ramsay rasped against her lips.

"What is rightfully mine?" Rieka countered not moving as his hands trailed down her neck and arms, keeping her body flush to his. She tensed against him, swallowing the bile rising in her throat.

"Winterfell." He answered.

"I doubt your father will give up the title so easily." Rieka countered. And she didnt want Ramsay to be beside her when the time came.

"Goodnight my lady." Ramsay cooed still holding onto her hands. He brought one hand up and lifted her chin. "We will be wed soon." Ramsay reminded her. "I can't wait to make you scream."

Rieka didnt know what she was doing but she was down in the kennels.

"Theon," Rieka whispered.

"Oh Rieka, no, I'm so sorry, please." Theon sobbed. She sat beside him on the cold hard floor and Theon sobbed harder into her.

"We dont have to talk." Rieka assured. "I think talking might be too painful." Theon choked out as he sobbed, tears dribbling down his face. "I just wanted to..." Reika didnt know what. "Sit and stare and... not think for a while."

"I can do that." Theon agreed. Rieka didnt know when it happened but she reached out a hand and grabbed his. Theon stared back at her silently.

"I hate that I miss you." She whimpered trying to cover her baby bump. "I hate that I loved you."

"I hate that i hurt you." Theon added. "I hate that i hurt your family. I was awful. I still am." Theon assured. She squeezed his hand as she blinked away tears.

"You were." Rieka agreed bluntly. But she tipped into him and he wrapped an arm around her. "But i loved you for so long Theon..." he felt her chest shake as she cried. Sniffles and tears and shakes filled her. Theon wanted to relieve her pain. To take it all away but he wasnt that man anymore. Wasnt the one to make her smile. He was the one that made her cry.

Avalon came running up and snuggled in beside her.  Rieka ran a hand along her back running her fingers through Avalons thick fur.

Rieka felt her eyes grow heavy and body go limp she didn't remember falling asleep but she woke up much like she had for many moons when she was home when things were normal... wrapped up in theons arms. avalon stretched out in a downward down when she saw rieka awake. Rieka touched theons chest before running cold fingers along his jaw.

He looked like her theon. Felt like her theon. She closed her eyes once more as he held her. She could almost pretend they were back in time and everything was fine. But the crunch of footsteps made her get up and scurry off. Not wanting to be seen or heard in the kennels.

Theon watched her go. He felt a wash of shame and guilt crash over him as he let her go.