Chapter 14.Dear My Lord GOD ALLAH THE ALMIGHTY and GOD's Son my Holy Lord Jesus Christ, MyKind, Massiah, Lord and Saviour, and To The One And Only True GOD Jehovah,I need to tell you something personal... to me. I haven't told Joseph. Poor Joseph. I can't. Ican't possibly. I can't breâk his heart, My Lords, and I don't know what to do.I have been trying to get pregnant for the last 4 months... every pregnancy tests come backnegative. Joseph longs for a baby girl and is concinced that the pregnancy tests are all false,and I cannot change his mind, he believes me to be four months pregnant with his daughter, hesays he just knows he's going to have a baby girl... He is always saving up for and askingeverybody to put donations towards baby items and keeps coming home with gifts and clothesand even a pram... but I went to a specialist and they have said that i'm barren. All I can think ofto adopt. Will he leave me when he finds out?What do I tell him and how?I show no symtoms... I'm absolutely heartbroken. I wanted my family to live on and i'm the onlyone remaining to have children.... and i can't. It's impossible.I'm praying to you for a miricle. Please gift me the blessing of a baby girl and make me becomepregnant. Or is this just the way you made me, and i will have children in Heaven whenevrything is perfect... everything was almost perfect.... now it's ruined and destroyed.I have no hope. Joseph is far too exited to notice i'm down... or is it that? He reads me likeabook and I think he knows i'm down but he is constantly trying to solve my problems to cheerme up and he keeps me in the belief that i''m pregnant... when i'm not.I'm good at hiding things but I cannot hide this for long. I will only tell Joseph when I have ananswer from YOU or YOUR Holy Angels as to how to tell him and what to say. Please speak tome so that I can hear YOU, GOD, like you speak to Joseph.Joseph has moved in with me ow.We live together. For that, I am happy, but i still scared, andhave yet another problem.It's christmas at the end of the month and we don't even have enough oney for a meal orchristmas presents. Joseph only wants to know that i having his baby girl, his daughter, and hesays this will be the best christmas we've had. That IS his Christmas gift. I extremely thin andJoseph said that i should start showing soon... properly... i've gained weight but that jsutbecause i eat too much at times and am not excercising properly. I think it's for an innocentreason but Joseph is certain my waight gain is due to pregnany.Help me My Lords!Lorna.Amen.
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She Who Walks With Angels
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