KODIGO

8

*TW : Violence, lots of curse words and bullying*

Kael's POV

After that encounter Seb and I went invisible at each other. Not that I'm expecting pero haler? He's acting like we doesn't have work to do and siya itong nagpapabigat honestly!

I sat heavily on my chair. Carrying all the books regarding our research title na ako lang din naman ang nag-isip. Ni isa, wala pa siyang naitutulong and very onti nalang magbuburst na ako infront of him which is ayoko naman mangyari.

Habang nagbabasa ng libro, my phone suddenly vibrated and seeing my mother's name at my lockscreen immediately made my skin crawl.

Fuck, please tell me na hindi niya alam.

Please just this once. Don't let me down.

I gulped before opening the message at kaagad bumungad sakin ang nakakakilabot na text nito.

Mama

Mikael
What's happening to you?

Po??

Do you think na hindi ko malalaman?
I've been monitoring your scores lately and why!
Why did you get such a low score?!!
Bakit may mali kang lima Kael!?

Ma, it was just hard for me.
I'm sorry po, babawi ako mommy.
I promise po

Talagang dapat kang bumawi!
And what do you mean by too hard?
You're not just studying hard!
Huwag mo idahilan ang mahirap Kael
Hindi ka ganiyan dati, kaya umayos ka!

Ma I'm really sorry po
Magaaral po akong mabuti

Aba dapat lang!
Have you even been taking the supplements i've been giving to you?
For God's sake Mikael, hindi kita pinalaking ganiyan ha.
I told you to advance study, hindi 'yung natatandaan mo lang ang pinagaaralan mo!
You should be on the top not behind someone else!
Naiintindihan mo ba ako?

Opo ma, I understand.
I'm really sorry po.

Good, kumain ka na
I will monitor your grades and scores everytime.

My heart dropped. It fucking dropped to the point that I could feel my tears flowing down on my cheeks.

Her words never really failed to hurt me everytime. Sino ang gaganahan na kumain at mag aral sa ganiyan?

She never appreciated what i've done. Ni maski simpleng thank you and i'm proud of you ay hindi ko nagawang marinig sa kaniya. All she does is to brag about me to her friends like some sort of trophy na pinaghirapan niyang makuha.

Sobrang bilis at panginginig na ang nararamdaman ko kaya hindi na ako nagdalawang isip pa na tumakbo palabas at magkulong sa cr. I checked all the cubicles before locking the door and opening the faucet.

Sinasabayan ng malakas na tunog ng tubig ang pag iyak ko. Sobrang sikip sa dibdib, sobrang bigat sa puso na kahit anong gawin ko...

Hindi ako enough. Never ako magiging enough sa nag iisang babae na gusto kong maging proud sa akin. Na tingnan ako bilang anak niya hindi isang bagay na maipagyayabang.