Insomnia [Stray Kids FF]

ㄴChapter 1ㄱ

It's 6 o'clock in the morning, that can't be!

Again, every night it is the same...

you're in your bed trying to sleep, but those thoughts, lights and figures in front of your sight won't let you sleep. In the mornings you're lying there not knowing what to do. The dark circles under your eyes are getting bigger and bigger and from day to day you're looking more pale.

*ring* *ring*

Your alarm goes on, another half hour without sleep is over. Slowly you get out of your bed and to the bathroom. You look into the mirror and shake your head: "It can't go on like this! I'm already looking like a ghost!"

You finished your morning routine within a half hour and put on your shoes and jacket. It is time for work! So you are going outside and take a walk to the big building you're working in.

Once you are there all of the other employees greet you. Not all of you are friends, but the work climate is really relaxed. You sit down at your chair and put your things on the desk.

A finger taps at your shoulder and you turn around to see Sina, your work colleague: "Hey y/n! "

"Hey! What is it?", you ask in work mode.

"Can we talk for a second?", she asks nervously.

"Sure! Wait, I'll close the door.", you stand up and did what you told.

Sina sits down at a chair to face you.

"Look, y/n, I'm really worried about you!"

"Why?", you lie.

"I mean look at yourself. From day to day you look more like a ghost! You can't tell me, that you don't realize it!"

"Yeah, I know."

"Do you want to talk about it?"

"No, no. I'm fine."

"But you don't look like it!"

"I'm really fine, no need to worry.", you give your best to form a weak smile.

She gives you a last checking look, but walks out of the room. Only to come back within a second. She presses you a little card into your hand: "Here, you should consider going there!"

"Thank you, also for worrying about me."

She nods as an answer and goes back to her work space.

After a hard day of work you say 'goodbye' to your colleagues and make your way home. While you are walking you read the little paper, which Sina gave you.

' Psychiatrist Doctor Kim Yeji '

A phone number and an address are also on it. But you put it back into the pocket of your jacket, without giving more attention to it.

At home you are tired, thinking about getting some sleep once, you darken the room and jump onto your bed. Again, the feeling is back! You are completely tired, but your body still won't let you sleep. Thoughts flash into your mind, the room lights up with those creepy lights and you're not sure if you're are alone. You pull the duvet over your head and try to disappear in your mattress, but it doesn't help. Your thoughts are getting more and more and soon a flashback from your childhood pops up:

Trigger warning

It was afternoon, you were probably only between six or nine years old. Out of your opinion life was a mess and at this time nobody was home. It could be the right time to do it and to end everything...
You went to the kitchen and opened the cupboard. Tears started to roll over your cheeks and with shaking hands you took out a knife, your tears developed into a waterfall. Slowly you looked at the knife and realized you didn't even knew how to do it. The next moment you broke together onto the floor, the knife still in your hand. Another time you thought about how to do it, but you were interrupted by a car driving into the driveway. You stood up and looked out of the window, it was your mom. Quickly you put the knife back into the cupboard and cried until you heard someone walking upstairs to the apartment door.

Flashback end

You are startled and your whole body shakes. You make a quick decision and stand up, put your shoes on and run as fast as you can to the address, standing on the little card from Sina, hoping to meet someone there, even though it's already late.

Being fully out of breath you reach a big building in the middle of the city. On one of the signs from the entrance is the name from the card. You run into the elevator and as it reaches the right floor you storm out of the cabin and stop in front of a big glass door. It is already closed, but inside is still light. That's why you decide to press the door bell.

An unsympathetic woman opens the door: "Sorry, but we are already closed for today!"

"But—", you try to reply, but she already closed the door. You are hammering against it, with the hope of somehow getting inside.

Suddenly you can't feel your legs anymore and break down, the last you can hear were some steps coming from the other side of the door and soon your sight gets black.

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Author's note

Hope you all like my new book  = )

I'm looking forward for new and cool chapters!

Enjoy reading!

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