Insomnia [Stray Kids FF]

ㄴChapter 25ㄱ

"Well, it's kinda a serious matter, that's why we wanted to talk to you in a calm atmosphere.", Chan tries to start the theme.

"You're making me scared.", you respond a little bit surprised by the sudden seriousness.

"Well, you already know that we are in an polyamorous relationship, right?", Minho goes on.

"Yeah, but if it's this theme... I already told you that I don't have a problem with that. We live in a modern world, it's completely normal today!", you reassure them.

"We know that.", Felix agrees.

"But what is it then?", you ask confused.

"Well...", Seungmin starts, but can't go on, he seems very nervous. Just like the others.

"Ehhhh...", Jeongin tries his luck, but also doesn't succeed to get any words out of his mouth.

"Guys? Whats wrong? Why are you so nervous? You know that I'm your friend, you can tell me anything!", you try to calm them.

"But we don't want you as a friend!", Jisung suddenly says loudly.

You look confused into their faces, a hint a sadness and disappointment in your eyes: "What?", you stutter. 

"Wait, that wasn't what we wanted to say!", Hyunjin corrects hectically.

But too late, a little tear escapes your right eye. Slowly it makes its way down next to your nose, ending on your lips, where it leaves a salty taste.

You stand up, hoping nobody will see you cry. As you try to run away a strong hand grabs your arm.

"Stay right there!", Minho, whose hand it is, commands.

"Let go!", you command back.  

"No! I won't, let us explain first!", he says strictly.

"Go on!", you give them a chance, still looking in another direction.

"Y/n, please turn around.", Chan says calmly.

You do as he said, trying to hold back more tears.

"What I wanted to say wasn't that what you understood.", Jisung explains, "It's not that we don't love you as a friend, but the boys and I... we're starting to see you as more than just a friend.", as he finishes talking he lowers his head, scared in front of your response.

Your mouth opens wide surprised by the sudden confession. You're looking as if you saw a ghost.

Minho stops holding onto your arm as no response comes from you: "You don't have to do a decision now, we will be waiting for you.", he says calmly.

The only thing you can think of is running out of the room and that is what you do. You're overwhelmed by the different emotions you can feel in your body.

Honestly, you had already a crush of them for some time.

You run into your bedroom and jump onto your bed. Lying there on your belly, it feels like the time stops for a bit, to let you think about everything.

A thousand thoughts later, a knock is heard from your bedroom door: "Y/n, can we come inside?", Chan asks.

You sit straight up in your bed and slide over to the edge, there you place yourself: "Yes.", you say nervous. 

The eight boys enter your room and sit down next to you on the bed, or in front of you on the floor.

"Y/n, we already told you that you don't have to pressure yourself thinking about it.", Jeongin comforts you.

"And whatever you choose, we will always stay by your side, as friends or as lovers. That is what you have to decide.", Seungmin explains calmly.

"I'm just kinda overwhelmed. I didn't expect that to happen.", you laugh lightly.

Just through this quiet laugh all of the boys's expressions get more relaxed.

"You know what?", you ask them.

They have a confused expression on their faces.

"What?", they all ask at the same time.

You smile about your admirers: "Well, you probably don't know... I already made the decision."

"EH?! Really?!", they are synchronized again.

"Really.", you repeat.

"Then... if it's that case... can we know?", Minho asks curious.

"Sure, you could...", you say making them nervous.

"Please... tell us!", Jeongin whines impatiently.

"Should I?", you ask grinning, trying to hold your laugher in.

"You should!", Changbin complains.

"What if I wouldn't?", you keep them waiting.

"Tell us, please!", Felix whines complaining.

"Probably you're right.", you say sounding deep in thought.

"Waiting for your crush to respond to your confession is more awful than hell!", Jisung hugs Hyunjin, who sits next to him on the floor out of nervousness.

"Then I should start to tell you, right?", you ask one last time.

All of them nod agreeing in your direction.

"I really can't believe that you just confessed to me!", you say to yourself and the others look at you waiting for you to go on, "Although I don't have any experience about polyamory, I would still love to accept your confession."

"OMG!", Felix screams.

"Did she just say that?", Minho asks unbelieving the others.

"I think so!", Chan answers him.

"Then let me ask you this from all of us", Minho starts speaking, "do you want to become our girlfriend?"

Sixteen loving eyes are staring at you with high hopes.

"Yes! I would love to!", you shyly hold your hands in front of your face, waiting for them to respond.

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Author's note

Just the words!

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