Regret - The Rookie

Chapter 6

Tamara's POV

Lucy: "How did you know what to do?"

Tamara: "When you have had a few, you discover how to help calm down." All of mum's friends are looking at me. I sigh

Tamara: "I have had more than an enough panic attacks to know what to do. Being adopted not a lot of people care about you, I have had to calm myself down because no one would help." Angela comes close to me and places a hand on my shoulder.

Angela: "There's something that you haven't told us. Could you please tell us? We all care about you here." I take a deep breathe and sigh.

TW begins

Tamara: "The family's that I have been to haven't been nice to me, they always forgot about me. All the 'fathers' would discipline me on the regular. I would barely get fed, I kept running away from the homes but then kept getting brought back. No one listens to a kid or even cares enough to take a look. I was bullied a lot, one of the mothers would use a blade and cut me. Telling me that no one wants me and I'm ugly, also mentioned..." I paused because it's just too painful to mention.

Nyla: "Hey, it's okay." She grabs my hand and holds it.

Tamara: "She told me that I should kill myself because I not worth anything. She would leave the blade near where I was sleeping, one night I saw it and wanted to do it. End all this pain and misery, but the one thing stopping me was my mum. I wanted to meet her and be with her, I knew that wouldn't happen if I did it. I put my walls up, keeping my heart to my chest not letting anyone in. I had a few people combine claiming they were my parents but none were."

Tim: "Oh, T. That explains why you got scared of Nolan that day and then flinched when Chris went to hit you. We all can see that your like your mum. You're both fighters and have been through hell, we all are amazed by how strong you guys are. A lot of people would quit, but you guys keep going. T, we all hope that over time you can start to trust us. Could you maybe show us the injuries?" I nod and unbutton my shirt to show them all.

Grey: "Oh, Tamara. We're so sorry." I felt arms go around me, when I look behind me it was my mum pulling me in. She held me close.

Lucy: "Oh, baby. I'm so sorry. I cannot believe what you went through, you're unbelievably strong and I love you so much. You're a fighter." She holds me tight for a little bit then I turn to face her.

Tamara: "Mum, I have something to ask. Did that Chris guy do anything to you?" She simply nods, everyone is shocked.

Tamara: "That's why you froze. It brought a lot of flashbacks back. I want to know, what did he do?"

Lucy: "He start off verbally abusing me; telling me how fat and ugly I am, that I'm worthless, that no one cares about me and he told me that everyone would be better off if I disappeared. Then he started getting physical; punches, hitting and kicking. Everything, he would cut me if I didn't obey him and he stabbed me when I pissed him off. I learnt how to stitch because I couldn't go to the hospital every time he stabbed me. I remember one time he knocked me out and I'm not sure but I think he might of raped me." Everyone was shocked.

TW finish

Angela: "Is there anything you could show us?" She was reluctant but agreed and took her shirt off to show everything. I saw that tattoo again and knew how she felt. Of course I did the same thing I did when I first saw it, so I kissed it and placed my hand on it.

Grey: "You girls have been through hell. I cannot believe that it has happened. We'll add this to his charges for you, and I will make sure that you aren't going to his court date. Well, we will not test Tamara yet but you guys can head home if you would like."