My Life With Zedd

Chapter 67

Selena's POV
I know I seem cool calm and collected on the outside but I'm freaked out about everything. The wedding, the babies, etc. I know Zedd's freaking out too, but I can't show that I am. Because then no one will be stable. And trust me, if that happens, everything is going down. I starting to rethink having a baby while I'm pregnant. Isn't stress bad? I hope it's not, but if it is, I'm canceling the wedding until the babies are born. I'm not dealing with terrible consequences. I think I've decided on names, Ethan and Audrey. But things may change when I see the babies. I hope they get Zedd and I's best qualities. What am I thinking, of course they will. Charlotte and Trent have the best qualities so these babies will too.
To be honest, I never pictured myself as a Mom of two, almost four. I always thought I'd get married by twenty-seven, have my first kid at thirty and maybe at thirty-two have my second. But I'm twenty-five (almost six) with two kids and two on the way. Oh and not even married, but about to. I'm pretty sure Zedd never pictured his life like this either. It'll be weird, Zedd's the only one of us who technically has a sibling. Well, half-sibling, Polina. But I haven't spoken to her in over a year. Neither has Zedd. He thinks that she had another kid, on Instagram she posts photos with her son, Zedd and this little girl who's name is Kelly. Well, Polina hasn't met Trent or Charlotte and I bet she has no clue on the twins. And I'm not in the mood to talk. I just want to go to sleep forever. Feel me? I hope you do because being pregnant/planning a wedding/being a pop star/being a Mom is incredibly hard. I hope it gets easier.