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Duntrent - Loving Him - Angst & Fluff

Duntrent - Angst & Fluff
TW: Swearing, mentions of self harm, mentions of wanting to attempt suicide

FOR Nocoshipper1 BECAUSE U WANTED A DUNCAN ANGST CHAPTER TO FLUFF 😋!! So errrrmmmmm in my mind I think of their relationship being like Duncan is the grr rah emo hybrid baddie prince gacha life jake/DONT TOUCH TAIL/gay/emo that he is (THAT'S A JOKE) but he has like a soft-er or soft-ish side for Trent 🤩. While Trent is just like, Trent, so uhm not much to that. I ALSO STRONGLY BELIEVE DUNCAN SECRETLYYY LIKE PHYSICAL TOUCH IT IS JUST DEEP DOWN IN HIS SOUL while Trent favors quality time and words of affirmation😇.

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Duncan's POV:

What am I even doing with my life?

I sit around in bed, doing nothing but rotting away on my phone. I barely get up to eat, be productive, literally anything except work. I managed to get myself a boyfriend, Trent. We met on that show, Total Drama, which I regret but also don't regret ever joining.

I'm suprised he's even still with me. I cancel a lot of plans, don't even plan most of them, and lowkey act like a dick. I think he just has pity for me. He knows that I harm myself, it's obvious to most anyone. I have the scars on my wrists and some not so visible ones on my thighs. When I went to highschool, people used to scream at me "wrist reveal!" because of the way I dress, not knowing I actually use razors blades for something other than shaving. Trent also does know how my depression affects me, which is why I don't do anything. He'll occasionally come around and help me clean up my apartment or try to energize me to get up when I have time off.

I really do love him, and everything he does for me. I don't understand why he wanted to date me out of anyone, especially after I used to date his ex-girlfriend. He says he loves me, and that he wants me to get better, yet somehow, there is always just a screaming voice in my head that tells me that he he's lying. That same voice tells me stuff about everyone. Like how they hate me, will leave me, don't love me, and I believe them.

I've thought about getting therapy for these thoughts and how they affected me, but I just can't do it. I don't think I'd even be able to get up to go meet them, nor do I want some stranger knowing my buisness. No matter how much people tell me it'll help, I don't want to get it.

Even if some of those thoughts aren't true, I know some are. My ex-girlfriends absolutely hate me. I thought that maybe, just maybe, after the breakups I could try to befriend them because I genuinely believed we had a connection, just not a romantic one. But they were on a whole different page, and now hate my guts. It's been many years since Total Drama, I'm 20 now. Yet people are still latched on to how I acted back then, most of it was just a play for Tv anyways. I'm not a bad person, I just want to act tough. Sure, I've been to juvie and shit, but that's in the past.

I'm always put last for everything. I think part of why that happens in because they assume I'm just some dickhead who doesn't care. But I really do care, about everything.

Third Person POV:

Duncan was just laying down in bed, staring off to the other side of his room, thinking. He was just ranting to himself, which he does very frequently. He doesn't want to talk to other people and put it on them, so he puts everything on himself.

While he was sitting there just thinking, while listening to some emo ass music, Trent started to call him.

Shit, why is he calling me? Duncan thought to himself.

"Hello?" Duncan said after answering the phone call.

"Hi Duncan," Trent responded.

"Why are you calling me?" Duncan said in a sort of rude tone, even though it wasn't exactly his intention.