It's Always Been You

Jasper

(Y/ns pov)
As the day went on I was spending more time with Bellamy we laughed and talked and it honestly made me realize how much I had missed being with him and it brought me back to the night before I got locked up.
*flashback*
I was sitting by myself looking out into space when I heard a voice come up beside me but it wasn't just any voice it was his Bellamy Blake's voice "thought I might find you here." He said as he sat next to me "it's not really a surprise is it?" He shook his head "nope not really oh did I tell you I'm on the guard now." I just looked at him "no you didn't but I'm happy for you." Was I? This would only mean he wouldn't have time for me anymore and I'm not going to lie it was breaking my heart he swiftly moves infront of me and puts his hand on my cheek and begins to speak "now y/n I want you to know that no matter what I'll always be your best friend and we can still hang out like we do now." I put my hand on his hand and for a small moment I felt like it was wrong to look at him this way I'm 17 but when we were younger I dated his best friend but he got locked up years ago after i broke up with him but that moment passed and before I knew it we were both leaning in to each other our faces only inches apart when we got interrupted by Ravan "y/n they're floating your dad!"
*end of flashback*

I get snapped out of my thoughts by Clarke coming back with the others but someone was missing Jasper "wait where's Jasper?" I say "grounders took him." Finn replied "what do you mean took him?" Clarke explained everything then said that we needed to go after him and I wanted in he and Monty are two of my best friends and I loved them dearly Monty wanted to go but Clarke told him no me her wells Bellamy and Murphy went i over heard Bellamy talking to Murphy "why did you agree to go?" Murphy began "because if the ark thinks the princesses are dead they'll never come here I'm getting their wrist bands even if that means I have to cut off their hands to do it." Bellamy finished and I was in shock because I knew exactly who he was talking about me and Clarke we all stopped when we heard something a twig snap we turned to see Finn "guys just so you know you're going the wrong way this way come on." I go up to stand next to Finn and we're walking side by side while he's tracking "what changed your mind about coming?" I ask him "i couldn't let you go alone with the people you hate now could I?" He laughs and I laugh but for a split second I look back to see Bellamy and I knew he heard everything Finn and I just said.

(Bellamy's pov)

We are trying to find Jasper and Finn thinks he knows where we're going y/n was walking behind Murphy and I I was going to slip back there to talk to her but she walked up to Finn and began to speak "what made you change your mind?" She said her voice was like music in my ears "I couldn't let you go alone with the people you hate now could I?" He laughed and so did she did she still hate me? I get what I did was messed up but I loved her and if she still hated me why did she make up with me I don't get it I'm snapped out of my thoughts by a moan from Jasper we run to towards it at this point y/n and I are at the front and she goes to get Jasper but the ground around her caves in I grab her arm to keep her from falling and for a split second I thought about her wrist band and how I could take it off right here and right now but Finn began yelling at me to pull her up and so I did and she ran over to Finn the second she was pulled up and hugged him and I knew in that moment I would never be good enough for her no matter how hard I tried but I also knew I couldn't think about that right now Finn and Murphy began to cut him down but before they could we heard something and out of no where a panther comes out and starts charging at us "Now would be a great time to use that gun Bellamy!" Clarke shouted I reached for the gun but it was gone I had it just a second ago then it charged for y/n and then gun fire Wells shot the panther dead saving her I run up to her but before i could say anything wells handed me the gun and spoke "come on let's get him down and get the hell out of here." They cut Jasper down and we went back to camp."

(Y/ns pov)
We found Jasper and made it back to camp Clarke and I tended to his wounds and everything was fine I went out of camp because I needed to clear my head from everything that just happened and I couldn't do that with all the noise Bellamy followed me and I hadn't noticed till he said something "you know you're really brave." I turned around and just looked at him "I mean with what just happened you still came out here? Do you got a death wish or something?" No of course not well maybe "and if I did?" He shook his head and came closer to me "don't say that that's a very bad thing to say princess." He said as he grabbed my waist with one arm and pulled me close to him leaving no space between us it brought me back to that night on the ark again the one where we almost kissed but I didn't know if this was what I wanted "I can say whatever I want Blake." I had almost never called him by his last name I've only done it once or twice "ouch Blake? Is that how we're playing it Griffin?" How dare he use my words against me "I think it is." And for a moment I felt safe he still had ahold of me and I felt safe and before I knew it our lips connected and I felt something I've never felt before with anyone I just didn't know what that was "come on we need to get back dinner will start soon." He said letting go of me I just wondered if he felt the same thing I did when we kissed he started walking back and I followed him and just went over to Finn I didn't mention anything Finn eventually went over and got me him and Clarke so food after telling Murphy off we ate in silence and went to sleep afterwards but the only thing on my mind was that kiss with Bellamy.

(Bellamy's pov)
I had kissed y/n and I was happy about it because I've loved her for so long but I know she didn't want me and it hurt but at least know I know my feelings for her aren't just in my head I had fallen for her and hard but when I returned to my tent that night there Monroe stood naked waiting for me and that night I went to sleep next to her after we had sex but i couldn't get y/n out of my head.