DISTRESS

CHAPTER 27

It took me only a couple of days to finally step out from my hiding. I tried to endure all of it just to get away from further pain even for just a short amount of time.

To me, it feels like too much have happened since the principal left and grandma Merry died right beside me. I was feeling unbearable pain and grief that time even until now. And my silent cries felt heavier than those who roars in grief. I would've collapsed there if it weren't for manager, assistant manager and the twins who ran up to me and comforted me. The timing is just horrible. Just when I was about to introduce them to grandma, this tragedy happened.

My eyes stung as tears threatened to burst out, seeing the principal. Why won't she stop bothering me? Even in school I had to make up endless excuses and did almost everything in my power to not see or even talk to her. But she keeps coming back again and again. Even at work she won't stop bugging me. No matter what she do, I'm not going to talk to her. I'm so angry at her that I can't stand seeing her face. 

Our eyes locked and I was the one who broke contact as I made my way back. She quickly ran to catch up to me. "Dawn. Please, let's talk. Stop avoiding me." she reached out to me but a pair of arms blocked her. It was manager and assistant manager who stood between us.

"Hold it. This is as far as you can get," manager warned. The twins quickly embraced me.

"I need to talk to Dawn," she insisted looking at me but I looked away. "Please don't do this to me. I beg you."

"She doesn't want to talk to you so I suggest you leave right now," assistant manager said. Her voice colder than usual. She's clearly pissed as well.

The principal tried to break through but manager and assistant quickly grabbed her to stop her. "I'm not leaving until Dawn talks to me." she said still struggling to break free.

"I don't want to talk to you," I said, finally looking her in the eyes. "I don't want to see you ever," I added, trying my best to hold back my tears.

She shook her head, "No, no. You don't mean that. Please don't push me away," she begged, stray tears falling down her cheeks.

My heart clenched at the sight of her crying as she begs. "Please leave me alone," I pleaded. I tried to keep calm but my words came out shaking.

"Dawn," I can clearly hear how her voice broke and I felt an unbearable pang in my chest.

"I don't care whatever you say. I won't talk to you and neither do I want to see you! Why can't you just leave me alone!!" I shouted, my eyes brimming with tears as I break free from the twins. Furiously wiping my tears I ran out of the bistro. Completely ignoring their desperate calls.

I don't fucking care anymore. Fuck this!!!

I want to scream, o thrash, to break things. I want to let all my frustrations out. I honestly feel like I'm going to lose my mind. I've had enough, I don't want any of this anymore.

I ran and ran as far as my feet could take me. Passerbys would glance at me in confusion or surprise as I ran while crying. I don't care. Nothing matters anymore. Even the exhaustion and pain doesn't seem to affect me.

Without much thought my feet unconsciously took me to the cemetery. I walked all the way to my mother and sister's grave and grandma Merry's who has now joined them. My legs buckled and I fell helplessly on my knees at the sight of their gravestones. My lips quivered and tears flooded my eyes and cheeks as I bowed my head, tightly gripping the grass.

"I don't know what to do anymore.....Why am still alive?" I complained sobbing. "What exactly does it mean to be alive if all the people I care about have already disappeared." I added, taking my hands over my face.