CW- ED, Rape, SH, a lotta bad things, also didn't read it over so oops
September 2nd, 1996
I got up from bed as soon as the sun came up and dressed quickly and quietly. My arms are still red from scratching but it was a bit chilly out so I wore a sweater to hide it. I went out to the quidditch pitch to fly around a bit to clear my mind. Trials were not until next Friday so I knew it would be empty. I've always wanted to play but my father forbade me. He always said it was not ladylike. When we would have dinner with the Malfoys growing up, I used to bring it up when Draco would talk about quidditch but my parents always shot me down. Even Narcissa would defend me and say that she played in school but none of it worked. The only time I got to play around a little was when Draco and his friends played and they let me join. Draco's always told me to play and lie about it but I do not want to risk getting caught. I spend a little over an hour flying around the pitch. It calms me more than anything. I go back up to the dorm and wash my face before grabbing my backpack to head to the library.
"Hey, Y/n!" Valentina smiles, "You're up early."
"I know," I smile "Went flying, I was going to head to the library now to read up a little before we have class."
"Oh? Okay, I thought we could go down and get breakfast together, I am sure you're hungry by now," she smiles. I am hungry, starving actually. "Wanna go get some breakfast and then head to the library together?" I would not be able to get away without eating now, not just because Valentina is suspicious but because I am so undeniably hungry.
"Sounds lovely," I smile as best as I can and we head down to the Great Hall for breakfast. We sit near Draco and Blaise and Valentina starts to dig in. I grab a slice of toast and put a thin layer of butter and jelly on top and nibble on it. The first bite tastes like heaven. I can't help but salivate as I begin to dig in, taking bigger bites. I feel a binge coming on but I drink loads of water between bites and bounce my leg under the table to refocus my nervous energy. I finish my first slice of toast and pour myself a cup of tea. I sip it slowly and try to calm my mind but I can't, I am much more hungry now that I started eating than before. I shakily put my tea down and try to avoid making eye contact with anyone although it feels like everyone's eyes are on me I pick up another slice of plain toast and smother it in butter and jelly just like the previous but this time more liberally. I contemplate making more and then eating but it might be best if I make and eat them one by one. It feels as if everyone's eyes are locked on me like they are all judging me and talking about me, about how fat I am for eating. I squeeze my eyes shut and eat my toast and try to force out the thoughts. It's all in my head. It's all in my head. It's all in my head.
"Y/n? Y/n?" Valentina's voice snaps me out of my thoughts.
"Hmm?" I must look dazed and confused because both Draco and Valentina are staring at me.
"Are you alright? You were mumbling to yourself," Valentina says with a concern fixed on her features.
"Yeah you were acting like a total fruitcake," Draco looks at you like you're insane.
"Draco!" Valentina elbows him.
"It's fine," I roll my eyes at them, "Yeah I am okay sorry just got lost in my thoughts ya know," I eat my second slice of toast.
"So are you?" Draco asks again, trying to loop you back into the conversation.
"Am I what?" I finish my second slice.
"Going to try out for quidditch this year?"
"Oh... No. You know I can't even if I wanted to. If I got on the team my father would kill me," I sigh and sip my tea.
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FanfictionY/n is arranged to be married to Draco Malfoy, but, his father, Lucius takes a special liking to her, however, her biggest problem may be her infatuation with her potions professor. *WARNING* *This story contains dark themes such as rape, abuse, eat...
