Punishment- Reader POV

Chapter 15

CW- self-harm, mentions of self-harm, mention of abortion and loss of pregnancy, ed thoughts, abuse and threats.

*i did not proof read i just wanted to post since I am so behind, might go back and edit!*

April 23rd, 1997

I woke up quickly and was startled by a distant knocking, it was not on the office door it had to be coming from the classroom door. I glanced over at Professor Snape but he was already up and out of bed.

"Stay here and don't make a sound, use your wand to lock the door," he handed my wand to me before going to see who was at the door. I did as told, locking the door and staying in his bed. Memories of last night flooded my mind. I could not believe I kissed him, I could not believe I let him know I love him, and most of all I could not believe he said it back.

What would happen next? Would he initiate it now? Would he want to take it further? My daydreams were cut short when I heard Lucius's voice beaming throughout the classroom from my side of the door. In an instant, my heart dropped to the pit of my stomach and reality hit. I felt so sick and dirty. Memories of yesterday that I'd wish to never have to relieve came to mind, the abortion, the pity on Madmae Pomfrey's face, the guilt. It felt as if thousands of spiders were crawling all over every inch of my skin. I couldn't help but roll his jumper's sleeves up and start scratching. I pressed my nails deep against my skin and scratched up every bit of my arms. They quickly started to sting and small beadings of blood droplets coated my arms. The blood was warm against my burning skin. I stared down at it, in shock at what I just did. It burned but for the first time in months, my mind was quiet. I took a shaky breath and leaned over to the night table, grabbed a couple of tissues, and dabbed up the blood, before rolling my sleeves down again to hide my markings. The ringing in my ears quieted completely and soon enough I was able to hear Lucius's arrogant voice again.

"You are a loyal man Severus so I have no fear in telling you what idiot my wife is," he chuckled cockily, "I have got her wrapped around my finger, buying baby clothes for my little angel and she doesn't have a bloody clue. Oh, I pity everyone else, I truly do, it must be horrible to live such filthy lives, but not anyone can be a Malfoy can they."

Oh, he is so vile.

"My darling girl is carrying my baby, such a shame we have to lie but I'd never want to embarrass Narcissa in the public eye, to be tossed aside just like that, discarded for a younger, hotter version of who she tried to be. What a disappointment she would have been to the House of Black if I hadn't come swooping in to take her off their hands. Not to mention the way she could get away with anything because all eyes were on her pathetic blood traitor of a cousin."

From what I could hear there was pure silence on Snape's end but that did not seem to stop Lucius from talking without any shame or guilt.

"Do not get me wrong, I loved Cissa deeply, and I still care for her, she just cannot give me what I need lately, she is always so caught up on the goddamn punishment Draco was given and how I am reckless like I do not know what I did but it's over get over it. Draco's been quite the disappointment lately anyway. My poor child will have to be raised with a father like him."

He was unbelievable.

"Is this what brings you here at this hour Lucius, I do not have time for this," Professor Snape finally broke his silence.

"Oh don't act like such a busy man, Severus, after all you're job is to teach children how to make silly, bubbling potions," he laughed condescendingly.

"My apologies-" I could hear the sarcasm radiating off of Snape.

"Are greatly appreciated," Lucius cut him off, "I need you to do me a favor, I want you to keep an eye on my boy and make sure he takes good care of Y/n, while she carries my baby, do you think you could handle that, Severus?"