It took me a year to get over him. I mean not fully get over him. But a year to stop crying myself to sleep and imagining how happy he's making his new girlfriend. A year to stop torturing myself with the image of his lips pressed against hers, him waking up in the morning smiling ear to ear cause she made him the happiest boy in the world. I made him that happy once I suppose. But the day he broke up with me, I realized that maybe I didn't make him as happy as he could be. But now it's sort of like I'm just dead inside. Living each and every day emotionless with no purpose.
I see him a lot still. Which is probably why I haven't completely gotten over him. I see him and his girlfriend at this coffee shop every morning. Sitting in a booth in the back hugging and taking pictures.
All I keep thinking about is if that was me. If even for a second I could be wrapped in his warm embrace with him whispering my name into my ear.
I always tell myself that I'm going to talk to him. That I'm going to just walk up to him and try to be friendly. But every single time I try no words come out.
I can't. What will he say if I try to talk to him? What will I do if he completely ignores me?
Today though. I need to. Cause it's been a year and a half since we broke up. I just want to let him go already.
I walk into the coffee shop and sit down in a table near Daniel.
His girlfriend isn't with him today. I know they've been dating for 6 months... And I overheard that things were going really great. So maybe she's just sick. But I decided that I was going to do it. I walk over and sit down.. I don't say a word. I just look at him.
He grabs my hand.
"I can't anymore Bri." He says.
I take a deep breath in.
"I can't let go of you." Daniel finishes with tears in his eyes.
I just sit there. It was at that moment I realized that's all I had to hear. That was all I had to hear to realize that I couldn't let go of him.
"Bri, I can't even remember why we broke up. All I can remember is us. And what we used to be. I can't explain what I was thinking when I broke up with you. Maybe it was the fear of losing you to someone else, but my fears became your pain, and I can't express my apologizes for that. It makes me sick to think I was so selfish. I loved you. I love you. And I will always love you. Please. Give me another chance. Cause when I remember what we used to be I just want to be back with you. Please" Daniel pleads.
I know I'm crying cause I can see the ripple in my coffee.
Daniel is gripping my hand so tight I start losing feeling. It's ok though. Feeling him near me makes me happy. Knowing he's mine makes me happy.
"Daniel, I love you. Always have always will. Of course I'll take you back. I miss you. I miss us. " I reply.
With that Daniel pulls me close and presses his lips against mine.
It's just like before. Everything is perfect and Daniel is mine now.
