What do I live for?

Chapter 18

Jace's Pov

In a blink of an eye I was in just boxers. Oh god. Dean is very hot. Builded but not too much. But to my liking. I carresed his chest, touching him all over. Dean gasped, loving my touch. I've never been with him like this before. But I'm not gonna say that I didn't long for it. He looked at me with so much love but also lust. I'm actually doing this willingly. Without being forced and raped. We kissed slowly as Dean explored my body. His every touch making me take a deep breath. Loving his warm big hands all over. Removing my boxers just as fast as he did my clothes. With that I felt a bit panicked. My heart started to beat more faster. What if he's as rough as Mike was. Mike was the only man I have ever slept with in my entire life. But to me this is like a first time because I'm actually doing it willingly. Dean studied my face. His eyes searching my soul. It was at this moment that I thought of nothing. Nothing bad. Not even that I hate a man like Dean. Reality came back to me when a finger inserted me. Yes. Dean is going to make love to me. Prepping me he inserted it slowly. "I don't want to hurt you Jace so whenever you want me to stop just say it," he whispered. "You've been hurting me ever since we met. I was hurting because you broke down my walls. I fell in love with you but I denied my feelings. Constricting my heart that wanted to be released. Who wanted to be free to love you." Dean smashed himself into me without warning." Aah... Aah." I bit to seal the sound. Dean kissed me." Don't hide it. I want to hear you, "he said. He went on hitting my prostate over and over. Making me cry in passion. Dean made love to me like I've never felt before. We went on for hours resting in between. He was marking me as his. Leaving me crazy for him. I was trembling under him. I was practically stuttering his name. Which made him go crazy and I loved it.

Dean's Pov
The next morning I woke up early. Early because of the dream I had. Wait... As I looked beside me the reality of what actually happened last night came back to me. Jace was laying beside me in my arms. His back facing me. The image that I've been trying to forget hunting me again. Three years ago when I saw Jace sitting on the hospital bed. With the hospital gown barely covering his back. How he has been hurt by Mike. I never got to see what it really was. All I know is that it was badly burn scars. Jace's scars from his past. As I studied the scars I could actually see what it was. To my confusion and shock. It was actually dates. Imprinted on his back with probably warm metal. Dates for him to always remember. I wonder what it means. But I'll wait until he's ready to tell me himself. Because I know he hates his past. Even though he hates it, I still want to know. "What are you thinking about?" the sweet sleepy voice asked me. "I was processing if this is a dream or reality. I'm very happy Jace. And I really really do love you. You are and will forever be my first love." "I belong to you and you to me. And I do love you Dean." We kissed again, sealing our love. "Dean help!" the door flew open. "Jace? What the fuck!"Dante said shocked. Caught Again. But this time it's worse."You're fucking my best friend! How dare you Greyson! Jace get dressed and meet me in my room," Dante yelled. She walked out smashing the door behind her. Leaving Jace shocked. "Dean?"he said with tears brimming in his eyes. "Don't worry about it." Jace got out of bed in a hurry. He started panicking. Tears rolling down his cheeks. "Hey don't cry," I said getting out of bed. I caught him when he was about to leave the room. "Calm down. Everything will be fine." He hugged me and left the room. I still couldn't believe what happened. Jace belongs to me.

Jace's Pov
Dante was pacing in her room when I entered. Closing the door behind me I approached her. Scared of her reaction." Why didn't you tell me about you and my brother. I thought we are best friends." "We are best friends. Dean just approached my life unexpectedly. I fell in love with him." I reasoned. "You're in love with him!" She didn't sound that mad. Just surprised. "Does he feel the same way?" she asked concerned. "Yes he loves me I know he does." With that she screeched. "Ahhh! I'm actually excited. I told you you'd make a great couple. You know what. I want to know the whole story from Dean. I never thought he'd actually fall in love. After his heart was broken three years ago." Her words caught me off guard. "Dean was in love with someone?" I asked curious to know how much Dante actually knows. As I haven't opened up to her about me and Dean. Our past. "Yes, but his heart got broken. He said he fell in love with someone in Manhattan three years ago. But the person hated him." My heart skipped a beat. "That was a sad long story my brother told me. I've never seen him so unhappy before." Guess she knows a lot. "That person was me Dante." She looked shocked. "I know I hurt him back than. But he just came out of nowhere and I was so scared. My trust issues was sky high. When he came into my life my emotions was so confusing. Because what he made me feel was unknown to me. And that scared me so much. I hated him for making me feel like that. Mike was a bastard did bad businesses as I told you. But knowing that Dean was in the same business made me despise him more. Guess I just lied and punished myself. He just kept showing up. And I liked it the same way I hated it. Seeing him all the time. Being so close to him. He was so gentle, like I was a prized possession. The first time we kissed. I knew I had fallen for him and that was my downfall. I've always loved him even knowing that he was a mafia I couldn't help myself. I couldn't." Tears ran down my face as I spoke." Hey Jacey don't cry. I'm not angry with you. I can never be angry with you no matter what you do. I am happy that you and my brother found happiness in each other. Now wipe those tears from your beautiful face. And before we move forward. Is there anything I need to know about?" Oh how I wish I could tell her everything. I am not ready to tell that tale. I've been judging Dean for being a murderer but I'm the same maybe worse. I killed two powerful men cold blooded. Without feeling guilty. We talked for a long time. Suddenly Shayne was on my mind. I'm not asking Dean to break up with him. I just didn't want to hurt Dean anymore. He needed to know that I love him too. I have been putting on this strong front but that's not me. I am not the sassy rude Jace that I am now. I am strong emotionally yes but not this wild person that I've build myself to be. I will not be that person anymore. I want to be the tender and sensitive Jace again. I want to be better for Dean. That is if he'll have me.

It's been two months already since Dean and I have been together. He has been nothing but sweet to me. Always visiting me at work. Dante even got fake annoyed. She loved to see her brother and best friend happy. I've learned that Dean is a very sweet loving person. Yes. Also very dangerous but he never let's me see that side of him. Because he knows how I actually feel about it. I've fallen more and more in love with him. My moms were also very happy for me.
It's Wednesday afternoon. Dean, Benny, Shaw and Ian were watching television. Baseball to be exact. Lewis and two of the guards came rushing in. I was busy in the kitchen but I could still hear what they were talking about. "Hey Shaw. Put on the news channel," Lewis insisted. The volume was loud enough for me to hear. "Evidence has been found after three years of investigation. The death of Mike Camilo Duwal and Aaron Gonzales might have been a murder. Witnesses informed that shots were fired before the house blew up. The perpetrator of this horrific crime must be brought to justice. But his identity is unknown. The brother of Aaron Gonzales and the former partner of Mike Duwal is on a rampage trying to locate the murderer. Sources also revealed that they're on a killing spree. As numerous killings has occurred that might be connected to the death." The tray of beers fell out of my hand shattering on the floor. My throat was dry as I shook. They all turned and looked at me. I was having a panic attack. 'No, Dean can't see me like this. He'll know. I felt sick to my stomach." Jace? Are you okay? You look pale." I was unable to speak or think clearly. A knock at the main door scared me more. I felt anxious. Who could it be? Dean approached me  like a predator. As the door opened, my parents entered practically running towards me. "Did you watch the news? Go and pack your stuff we are leaving," mom Valerie insisted totally forgetting about our audience. "Wait. What is going on?"Dean asked confused. Tears flew down my cheeks. "What did you do Jace?" His words was unclear. Everything around me was spinning. The only thing I heard was my heavy breathing and my heartbeat. I was having a full blown panic attack. Everyone was talking but their voices faded into darkness. It was like I was in a black hole. 'They'll find me.'I thought and fainted.

Kent Pov
"Really Zeke. Three months away from your own home," Kent argued. "I'm back now man. Don't worry, your brother is back." Zeke and I are best friends and we live together. We've known each other all our lives. After the death of his parents he was very heartbroken. Even though he didn't grow up with them. Or were in contact with them he knew who his parents were. "I was in Los Angeles three months ago and I met a guy there. A sweet boy." I told him. "And you laid him right," he laughed. "This is no joke Zeke. Pay attention," I said annoyed. "Alright, alright and?" "His name is Jace Tanner." "And what does that have to do with me? There's a lot of Tanners out there. Doesn't mean we are family or something." This guy is so stubborn. But he won't be after hearing what I have to say. "Yes there's a lot of Tanners out there but this one is different." Zeke just rolled his eyes. "He said his parents was Zayne Gibson and Johanna Tanner Gibson." Zeke's eyes flew to me. "Don't fuck with me man." The shock in his face was evident. I took my phone out and showed him a picture that Jace and I took together that night. "Those eyes. He looks just like my mother. Kent Oswood. Are you telling me I have a brother out there that I knew nothing about. I have a brother that looks just like my mother. A face that I've been longing to see again." Zeke started sobbing. "I have a blood brother Kent. Do you know what this means...I am not alone. My own brother. We have to find him." "Wait don't rush. What about your companies?" "Who cares. Brady can look after it. He knows everything. I cousin as proved himself worthy of it. For godshakes Kent. My brother is out there alone. My parents passed 8 years ago. What he must have been through." There's no arguing with Zeke. Very stubborn billionaire. We booked our flight. It was scheduled for tomorrow night. Our private planes is being remodelled so we couldn't use it." Jace I'm coming brother, "Zeke said determined.

The end

This is the end of What do I live for? But rest assured that Jace's story is not over yet. New enemies. New family. New war. Will the characters make it out alive. How will Dean and Zeke react to Jace's past? And his secrets. How will they react to his confession?
What relation does Zeke Tanner Gibson and Sanchez Gonzales share? 👀
The sequel will be named 'Living for him & Loving only him'