Fuck...
Here I go again
Falling in love
For another man
Why do I always do this?
I know how it ends...
They always leave me
"Let's just be friends"
I was so sure of myself
I had it all worked out
There's no way in hell
And yet here I stand
With another love story to tell
He started off so...
Intimidating?
I think that's the word
Not the kind of man
I could easily fall for
But it was for show
He's not like that underneath
He's on guard with everyone
But not with me
In the beginning
There was bruises, bite marks, and cuts
But it wasn't intentional
Not like I thought
He didn't know my limits
Didn't know his strength
My fear was immense
But it was gone in a blink
I showed him my wounds
The bruises and cuts
His eyes showed nothing but worry
He promised it would stop
He's so gentle now
Not the man I met
Kisses and snuggles
I know this will inevitably end
But I will never forget
I tried to prevent this
Honestly I did
My heart is still healing
From the damage
Hayden inflicted
This was supposed to be fun
That's all and that's it
This could've been avoided
But I'm foolish
I admit
Wrapped in his arms
All through the night
How could I possibly
Ignore the feelings
I failed to hide?
I knew in an instant
I was damned
When he kissed my forehead softly
Thinking I was still asleep
Out of all the love I've lost...
This one I need to keep.
I'm scared
Fearful of letting it show
As soon as he sees my lovesick eyes
He will certainly go
At first he was the secret I had to hide
Now it's the love I have for him
It's sure to be my demise
So I'll keep pretending
Act like I'm tough
Anything
For just one more night
-LS
