Im scared to say this to your face...
So I'll hold it in
Just in case it's the last time I feel your gaze
I don't know how much longer I can wait
The words almost slipped from my mouth
More times than I can count
I'm just too afraid
Frightened that the words I want to hear so badly
Won't be the ones you say
And that saying those sacred words
Will be a huge mistake
Because then you'll be gone forever
And I'll ultimately be the blame
I love you.
I love that you notice when I'm anxious
How I pinch my neck and hold my breath
I love that you don't say anything
You just hold my hand
I feel your calmness wash over me
My brokenness finally content
I love it.
I ache for you when you're not here
I miss all the ways you make my pain disappear
I'm a broken thing
I don't mean to be
I've attempted to fix it in every possible way
You don't seem to mind
Maybe because you're broken too
I hope that I help with your pain
The way you help me with mine
