BSD Oneshots -Ranpoe, Soukoku, Shin Soukoku-

I'm Tired. (sskk)

TW: Death, blood, angst! If this is something you're sensitive to, please skip this chapter, as it's basically what this whole chapter is! <3

I might make another version of this story where it has a happy ending, if I do, it'll probably come soon! ♡

Also, this is quite short, but it was a random idea I had!

Nobody POV:

Akutagawa stared down at Atsuhi.
"A-Atsushi?"

Atsushi was layed on the floor, blood dripping from his mouth. His wrist was broken, his hand twisted in an inhuman way. His legs were covered in wounds and shards of broken bone, and from the chest down to his waist, stab wounds and slashes littered his body.

"ATSUSHI!"

Atsushi looked up at Akutagawa, his soft eyes glistening with unshed tears.

"Aku.." he whispered, his voice breaking.

Akutagawa grabbed Atsushi's hand lightly, lifting it to his cheek. "You're not dying on me! You're not! I'm supposed to be the one to kill you! Now get up like you always do, and tell me everything is gonna be ok! Hold me in your arms and tell me your ok, and that we'll be fine! Please.. Atsushi please.."

"Aku.. I'm sorry.. I haven't been honest.. with you.."
"I don't care right now Atsushi, get your ass up now, so we can go back to the agency, and that crazy doctor can help you, and then we can laugh about this! We can think back on this, and we can smile and laugh a-and we can be happy!"
"I never got.. To tell you how I feel.. I love you Akutagawa.. I have since.. the start.. But we were rivals, I couldn't tell you that I loved you.. I doubted you'd love me back.."

Atsushi grows paler as more blood leaves his body.

"I'm tired Akutagawa.. I think I'm gonna sleep now.. I love you.."
"Atsushi don't. Don't you dare!"
"When I fall asleep I probably won't wake up.. But we'll meet again.. In the afterlife.. I love you my love.. Goodnight.."

And with that, Atsushi's eyes fluttered shut.

"Atsushi? ATSUSHI! FUCK! WAKE UP! NO! THIS ISN'T HOW IT WAS SUPPOSED TO GO! I-YOU WEREN'T SUPPOSED TO-"

Akutagawa let the tears slip down his face, as he cradled Atsushi's bloody, lifeless body in his arms. His grip tightened as Akutagawa broke. More and more tears streamed down his face as he let out a pained scream, sobbing into the dead Atsushi's chest.

"Wake up! Please!" He screamed, freezing as he felt a hand on his shoulder.

It was Dazai.

"He's gone Akutagawa. We can't help him now. You need to let him go."
"Shut up! He's alive, I know he is! He'll wake up any minute now, and say it's some sort of prank, and then we can all laugh about it together! And I can tell him that I love him too.. And.." Akutagawa couldn't finish his sentence as he fell back into a sobbing mess.

Dazai just stared with a stone cold face.

***Later That Night***

It was around 11pm. Akutagawa now sat on the edge of a roof building, staring up at the night sky.

He held a pile of letters, each addressed to different people. But one was on top, written in red ink, with a heart on the top. It was addressed to "Atsushi, My Beloved ♡".

Akutagawa knew Atsushi couldn't read it, but he hoped that Atsushi's soul would find the letter, and Akutagawa's own dead soul with it.

Akutagawa slipped his shoes off, laying them beside him on the roof edge. And then he jumped. The wind rushing through his hair, the feeling of the ground growing closer, it was relaxing. He whispered one last thing before everything ended. "I'll see you soon, Atsushi."

***Bonus!!!***

You guys might he wondering, what did Atsushi's letter read? This is what it said.

"To my beloved Atsushi,
I don't know if you'll ever find this letter. But if you do, I trust you'll find my soul beside it. Your last words to me were 'I love you', but you were never able to hear my answer. I love you too.

Which is why I can't let you die alone.

I hope, if everything ends as planned, I'll be met with the cold embrace of death, and afterwards, you. And that after it all, our hands shall intertwine and we'll be lovers together, in a place we're nothing will seperate us.

In a place were we are free to love each other, and not be separated by the ending of death.

I write this in my last moments my love, so if you do find this, my soul will be near. Goodbye my love, I will see you soon. - Akutagawa Ryuunosuke ♡"

***The End!!!***