"𝑩𝒖𝒕 𝒘𝒆 𝒇𝒆𝒍𝒍" | 𝐊.𝐓𝐇✓

Chapter 39

(Almost 3 weeks later)

No-one's pov-

Things haven't been great for Y/N since past few weeks.

She has been stressed about her work, the company and the nightmares haven't been helping.

She had asked Sandra to just take a few of her stuff and stay with her in the house because she would come late every night and leave early for work.

When she was away Sandra had to take care of Leo.

Y/N tried to let Leo go. She took him outside of the house and left him outside but he barked and cried the whole day and wouldn't leave Y/N.

Y/N couldn't stand it and finally took him in again.

She thought Leo would want to leave, but it was quite the opposite. Leo wouldn't leave her after that day for a moment.

He had built an emotional trust and bonding with Y/N and it was the same with Y/N.

Pressure at work had been high. Y/N left the house at 9 a.m. in the evening and came back at 12 a.m. at night.

Then, if you may think, she couldn't sleep.

Ofcourse, the nightmares.

They wouldn't let her sleep.

She had got used to it by now. Everyday was the same for her. There wasn't one day that she did not have nightmares.

She had got used to all the blame, all the hatred, all the hurtful words coming from none other than Aura, her own sister, the person she loved the fucking most.

She had got used to choking on her own tears by now.

She didn't eat well, didn't sleep well, cried every night to sleep.

It was visible, every part of her misery was visible on her.

She had become noticeably thinner, weaker and paler.

She stayed lost in thoughts all the time, detached from people, her friends, cold, rude, frustrated and agitated all the time.

She felt all the hope go away at this point. Someone who she knows to be dead, her sister, affects her so much.

She doesn't even know if Aura is alive, but still it hurts her so much to even think that when Aura would finally come back, she would think her sister is a murderer who killed her cousin, her own cousin.

Whatever may the reason be, Aura would still hate her.

This thought, the thought of Aura hating her made her question her decision which she took when she was 13 years old.

(Back to when Y/N was 13 years old)

(Y/N's pov)

I don't deserve to live, do I?

Why should I live when I'm hated by everyone I know except Aura and Han-Ja?

I was standing on the edge of the terrace of my house looking down the 20 storey building.

Different thoughts started invading my mind.

What would I do even if I live? My parents hate me. Everyone in class thinks I'm weird. They call me weird. I don't have friends.

Everyone hates me.

Why? What did I do to deserve this?

I also want my mother to feed me food just like those children's moms who come to school to pick them up and feed them tasty snacks.