Secrecy || Ellie Williams AU Fanfiction

five

"maybe the world is yours, maybe when it rains it pours"

-wish by trippie red

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how am i supposed to talk to ellie? i don't know if she only did that because she was drunk or maybe she meant it? we have a game tomorrow and i'm stressing out. maybe i'm thinking about it too much.

my phone buzzed from my pocket.

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landon: u ok? i saw u walking the halls at like 3am.

yeah, i'm fine

landon: come on, dont just say ur fine!

i smiled at my phone as i twiddled my thumbs over my phone's keyboard.

andddd if i'm not fine?

landon: ill help you feel better.

i just had a rough night and my life isn't making it any better

landon: wow. so ur definitely not fine.

landon: can i come over then? ill bring something to help cheer u up. :D

yeah that'd be really nice

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damn, i hadn't talked to landon in years. why does he suddenly care about me? i hope what he means by "something to cheer you up" is a tub of ice cream.

me and landon were dating back in my freshman year of high school. we obviously weren't friends for a while but we met again in our junior year. we were a lot more mature and talked about everything going on in our lives. i talked to him almost everyday for hours and i knew he didn't lose his feelings for me. i'd lost mine ever since we broke up but i still thought he was an amazing boyfriend.

a few minutes later i checked my phone again. nothing. my phone could be dry sometimes but never this bad. staring at my empty notifications made my mood ten times worse. i opened me and landon's messages again and reread them until i could rehearse the short conversation in my sleep.

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knock, knock

i almost gasped when i heard the knock on my door. i haven't talked to him in-person in so long. i choked down my nervousness and turned the doorknob. i felt my face burning with warmth when i saw his face. i didn't even notice what he had brought.

"hi, casey!" my facial expression straightened. his words caught me to my attention and i looked down at his hands. i fought back my smile when i saw the food he brought. i hadn't eaten an actual meal in days because of how stressed i was.

"do you not like it?" his tone was so confident, he knew i'd like it regardless. he must've caught on to my order that i get.

"you can come in" i sounded like an awkward middle schooler. my face cringed at how different our tones of voice were. what was making me so nervous?

"your dorm is.. surprisingly clean." he smiled as he set down the food on my desk.

"oh- yeah, i've been trying to get out of that." why does he remember everything about me?

"so, what's on your mind?"

"i.. a lot." i sat back down in my chair and tried to focus my attention back to my schoolwork. i tried to open up to him but i hadn't been vulnerable with anyone in months. what do i even say? i can't tell him about ellie or abby, that's one thing.