Crazy Love

CL21: Indescribable

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𝑪𝒍𝒂𝒊𝒗𝒐𝒏 𝑷𝒂𝒏𝒆 𝑮𝒍𝒂𝒅𝒊𝒖𝒔

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Right now, I don't know what's happening. Runeia was gone, the trees were gone, and I'm no longer in the forest. But, I know where I am. Parang theater na mabilis napalitan lahat ng mga nakikita ko.

"Evenly Bliss Gladius! Come back here right now!"

"I don't want to! You're forcing me to stay here even though we had an agreement! I'm already 18, why... Why can't you give me my prize, my freedom, for being the perfect child that you wanted? WHY CAN'T YOU GIVE IT TO ME?!"

Pagkarinig ko pa lang ng mga katagang 'yan, hindi ko na agad maiwasang maiyak. Iniwas ko ang paningin sa kwarto kung saan nandoon ang kapatid at magulang ko. Then I saw my little me, being confused. Being completely idiot.

"Ma, you can't force me to stay here. I already have the right to choose whether I'll stay or leave."

"But you can't—"

"I can! You just won't let me!"

"Evenly! Listen, you must stay here, or else..."

" Or else what? I'm not afraid of anything now. "

"We're going to—"

I saw how my young self left and didn't heard what my mother was going to say.

"... Kill your siblings."

"WHAT?! Are you insane?!"

"ZYRA!"

I'm not shocked upon hearing that right now because I already read that in his diary.

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The scene changed. Pagkakita ko pa lang ng nag iisang kama sa gitna ng kwarto, agad na akong napaluhod.

"Kuya! Here's the knife that you want hehe." My young self giggles as he handed the knife to my brother.

Nakita ko pa kung paano ako tignan ng kapatid ko, pain and happiness.

"Now, that's a very good brother." Ngiting puri niya. That made the little me giggled more.

"In exchange, I'll give you this notebook—Don't! Don't ever let anyone read or see this, you understand, Vonvon?" My brother smiled. My young self was fascinated by the book,  so he just nodded happily. "I'll be sad and mad if you let anyone have this. Promise?"

"Promise!" I even raised my hand. My young self checked out the book, not noticing my brother who's crying silently.

Satisfied with my answer, my brother nodded with tears. Pinunasan niya muna ang luha at masayang tinawag ulit ako (young self).

"Vonvon? Why don't you leave right now? Can you leave right now before mom and dad come in?"

"Of course kuya bliss!" Natawa ang kuya ko kaya tinanguan niya na ang kapatid.

Gustong gusto ko takbuhin ang maliit na ako para pigilan siya sa pagtalikod kay kuya pero hindi ko maigalaw ang buong katawan ko.

I even shouted and scream, umaasang  maririnig niya ako para mapigilan ang gagawin ng kapatid ko, pero wala talaga.

"Remember, don't even come back here vonvon and never look back."

"Eh? Why — KUYA!"

Parang slow motion lahat ang nangyari, my young self slowly running towards to my brother, and my brother slowly falling.