If U Hate Me I'll Love U | Jeongcheol

25. Nothing got worse than Valentine's Day

Guessing what'll happen today. I'm much more excited about Jun's situation, I've been waiting for too long  for this day to come to know the response. I'm not as enthusiastic for my day because those past days, a lot of students are asking me what kind of lovers Seungcheol is in a relationship. What in the world do they mean by that, he's a normal person like everyone. Do they think we've been engaged together before even getting born.

As for these questions, I've got the answers this day. Everyone's celebrating Valentine, I mean everyone is celebrating their love and admiration towards Seungcheol. Since morning I have received more than 10 presents along hundreds of letters. Every single one of them are for him. I didn't mind it and shared the presents that don't have a place in my locker with the boys. Most of them are hearts chocolate.

"Didn't you read the letters?" Mingyu asked as he took another milk chocolate from the well wrapped box. A little flower shaped box containing chocolate with more than one taste, like orange, milk, cocoa, caramel and vanilla with more others.

"Why should I?" I threw a response question at his own question with raised eyebrow. What does reading them have to do with me?

"The fuck Yoon Jeonghan??" Jun slapped his hand on the table and the stares he's giving me are too aggressive to say that he's joking. I flinched but gave him a pale face as saying 'Tf do you want'

"Who lets their partner get love letters while they're sitting and doing nothing" Seokmin shortened the lecture I knew Jun would give me if he opens his mouth. The other nodded proudly and gave the place for the younger to speak.

"Man listen. Our point is to solve our comparable problem not to be 'lovers' in real life" I emphasized the word 'lovers' to make my sentence simpler for them to understand. Mingyu stole my Americano drink and sipped from it. He then added on the conversation.

"Lovers in real life or not. If your relationship is like this then never hope that your 'problems' will be solved"

"He's right. If you look around you'll see a lot of jealous people" My mind started doing theories and analysis for what they mean.

"If you already got a chance take advantage of it, solve your problem then think what you should do"

"Jun has a point, after all Seungcheol didn't turn out how you thought he is"

"Isn't.. how I thought..." I mumbled this sentence out and several times in my head. I watched them for few minutes munching on their lunch then continued my eating. As I was thinking about where they disappeared although we are in the same class, the two walked into the canteen to eat.

The guys turned their heads to where I was looking. Seungcheol and Wonwoo grabbed their food trays and started searching for a place to sit on. Seokmin gave me a sign to invite them here but I acted as if I don't understand and ignored him. The two went and sat on a table for 4 across us on the other side of the restaurant.

All of a sudden Mingyu picked up his plate and walked towards them. "Ooo, something's happening" Jun teased two times but got a rebuke in return.

As soon as he sat down Seungcheol talked with him. Mingyu took a while to respond because he looked over at our way then shook his head while speaking. The one who asked nodded and didn't say anything more.

I got curious of why my friend looked at us then shook his head. Just while I was watching them, two figures interrupted me as they walked in front of my eyes. Later more people followed behind.

When I realized what I saw I turned to Jun who's sitting across the seat that became empty a moments ago. His expression was gloomy, as if a cold bucket of water got splashed over him. I scrunched my nose in frustration feeling empathy for him. When did they become close? How?

The boy didn't move for quite a long time with his gazes following these two. After a while he shook his head and put down his fork then took out his phone and started using it. Me and Seokmin turned again back to Chiyeon and Minghao who are eating together with other friends.

No one of us wanted to ask about the problem, it's not the right time to talk neither is he in the right mood to reply.

The second time, it's my second time seeing this kind of grief on his face, just after he lost his little only brother. Jun was too sad to even move out of his bed, I don't know how I managed to convince him to go out with me at that time. We were solely in 7th grade when he got a call from the hospital that his mom and brother got into an accident. They stayed for almost two weeks then the 2 years little boy couldn't take oxygen in to his body.

That time Jun felt a depression for what seemed like a month, then later started coming back to normal slowly. I tried to not push him forcefully and let him take the time he needs. This incident is something I would never forget also the first trauma the boy got through, after that he never showed this expression again. But at this moment, he kind of let his feelings take over him.

At this time, I felt emotionally pressured. Firstly about my relationship with Seungcheol, secondly about my childhood friend and Chiyeon.

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When I talked with Seungcheol after school about today, I felt too narcissistic to accept the letters and everything else. Did he remember when we quarreled because of that girl? Or is he keeping our promise? Maybe he doesn't want to paint his reputation...?

But when I asked him for the reason, he was too humble in his answer; "There's nothing. I just don't want to fight again with you or break our promise"

I'm not that damaged to accept others feelings although we know we're not going to get together, and those girls also know that I'm not going to accept them. I'm not lacking anything emotional right? Am I? I've been well nurtured by my parents until their separation happened. Why am I still acting as if Seungcheol is my partner as though I don't need it anymore? My parents separated and the chance of me getting engaged reduced by 50%. But thinking about it twice, the boy still has a problem to be fixed.

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