muse - a jax x reader fanfic

6 - realize

"Rise and shine, mousie!"

"-@_$ you."

"What did I ever do to you?"

"Exist."

"Well, I'm gonna go for a walk now." And just like that, Jax left.

I narrowed my eyes. That's sus. "Whoa whoa whoa, mister. Stop being suspicious."

I heard a voice from the other side of the door. "You wanted me to leave you alone, right?"

"#-_@+," I muttered under my breath.

"Lazy #-_," he retorted.

"Mother#-_$@(."

Once the beep covered my last two syllables, he chuckled and left the room. "Great, your amazing too."

I sat up. "Hate that guy," I muttered.

No you don't, (y/n)...

"Ugh." I sat up, pulling my knees to my chest. It was starting to get frustrating staying here, even if it had only been a few days.

I got out of bed to change but instead took a long look at my desk filled with an empty journal and writing utensils.

I need to remember.

So I sat down and began writing.

  day idk what the f̵̧̡̡͍̦͔̙͉̦̬̭͎̿̑́͑̓͂ŭ̴͉̩̖̝͉̯͚̤͚͓̠͍͕̒c̸̝̙̪͍̠̭̦̗͚̙̈́̿̈́̔͂̒̂̀̚ķ̸̡̢̛͇͚͍͉͇̦̪̟͍̞̠́̐̄͋̍͌̍̉͗̚͝ anymore.

I yelped as I noticed the curse word was subjected to blackness, making it barely visible anymore.

I shrugged and kept writing. What could I do about that? Its literally just a black boss.

  ive been stuck with the circus inhabitants for a while now and i feel like ive gotten a steady relationship with all of them.
  except for maybe zooble, who kind of intimidates me, and kinger, who i dont even know how to approach.
  gangle is actually a nice person to talk to. although shes a bit shy, shes a stronger person than what people think she is.
  oh, pomni was shy at first but now shes in her comfort zone around me. shes wonderful, albeit a bit loud, but still wonderful.
  ragatha is the best mother figure i could ever have here. i couldnt have asked for a better person to support me.

I smiled as I wrote about my friends. Then I frowned when I realized who was next.

  jax is... interesting. he wakes me up every single day and i dont even know what to think anymore.
  a girl values sleep, so let the girl sleep >:(

Yeah, Jax, I thought. Let the girl sleep.

  oh! another reason i wrote this was to remember. i dont remember a lot from my past, but what i do isnt good.
  i dont know why i remember my name. (y/n). it just feels so natural for me.
  anyways. what i can remember from my past is people screaming. i hear loud noises and banging, and then i hear the faint beep of a heart monitor. what happened to me? am i broken/in a hospital?

I frowned as I saw my hand begin to shake. Was I scared of my past? Did I hate it? Was it that bad?

  i dont trust this life, but i feel like its better than what i had before. so i might try not to leave.

I set the pencil back down as I pulled my knees to my chest. At this point I was remembering more, almost too much, like a dam. Hand shaking, I picked up the pencil again and wrote before I forgot.

  screaming. lots of screaming. i see a thlamp bring smahedd next to me as a man screamd at me. i was shaking as he lifted the chair up again but couldnt fight back. a woman tugged hsi arm but he smahed the chait againdt her and she collapsed inatead. why her and not me?
  why her and not em?

A knock on my door shook me from my thoughts. "Muse? Hurry up."

I slammed the journal shut as I quickly stood, placing it in a drawer and changing. "Few more minutes!"

"I've been waiting here for an hour!"

I froze. "Wait, actually?"

"No, silly. Just hurry up!"

"Fine!"

Quickly, I put on a (f/c) collared blouse paired with a large black skirt. Just something cute but simple.

I opened the door. "What is it this time?"

"Breakfast."

"Oh. Thanks for waking me up, I guess."

"No problem, (n/n)." He swung an arm around my shoulders, dragging me along to presumably the dining table.

~•~•~

When we got there, everyone was already chatting and having a great time without us. I took the seat next to Gangle as Jax sat in an emchair beside me.

He propped his head up by his elbow. "So, mousie, any good music recently?"

I frowned. "I'm not a song writer."

"Well, you should be. You have the potential."

I blinked. "I do?"

Jax gave me a confused look. "Yes, you do. What?"

Gangle, who was listening to the exchange the entire time, intervened. "For once, I agree with Jax. You have a lot of potential in music."

I blinked twice, allowing a small smile to soread across my face. "Actually, that might be a nice thing to do. I can do covers for songs from the real world—"

Jax coughed. "The memory issue."

I glared at him. "Shut up and let me speak. I can do covers for songs from the real world and can ask Caine for some pointers or assignments."

Gangle smiled a bit. "Or you could compose your own music."

I grinned. "True!"

Jax stole a bit of my pancake, which was probably his way of demanding attention. "Maybe you can remake the theme song."

"...That's actually not a bad place to start."

"What? Just because I'm a purple rabbit doesn't mean that I'm dumb. I was studying computer science before I got here."

I gaped at him. "Actually?"

"Mhm. Been here for years and that's the only thing I could remember about myself."

"Before I got here, I had someone in my life," I recalled. "He was studying computer sci before he disappeared a few years ago."

Jax gave me a strange look before shrugging it off. "What a coincidence."

"What a coincidence indeed," I agreed. "Anyways, I need ideas for the new theme song. Jax, move your lazy #-$ and actually decide to help."

"...Fine."

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hi, im madi, your loyal author 😊

i need to stop doing filler chapters -_-

thanks for the olot idea! ill see what i can do :)

also! go check out scared | a nico di angelo fanfiction. its set at the end of the titans curse and is super underrated compared to my nuzi book. please, go check it out!

anyways

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tysm for reading this crappy book ♥️