Family Ties

Was Any Of It Real

My dad and I came back home and the time was going to three. I went straight up to my room, cause I just wanted to be by myself for a while. I locked the door then switched on the TV and opened YouTube. I play some Kenny G then lay on my bed with my eyes closed. Honestly that visit was very much needed and also brought back a whole lot memories. It's sort of a bitter sweet moment right now cause I've realised that I have moved on and I've made peace with it now, but damn i still miss her alot.

Regardless of all of that I grabbed my phone and sent Bayanda a text just to update her.

Baby❤️

I just got home now... I will be there at six to fetch you for our date.
(15:01)

Alright. Are you okay though?
(15:07)

I'm good babe🫶🏾
(15:08)

I'll see you later then😘

(15:10)

I put my phone down after that and got out of bed and unlocked my door. I went back to bed and opened wattpad just to kill time and read. My door opened about fifteen minutes later and Aunt Khanyi stuck her head in. "Can I come in?" She asks lowly and looking around, outside my room. "Yeah." I say then put my phone down. She gets inside then locks door. I arch my eyebrows then she sits on my couch. "Can you come here." She says then I go sit there next to her.

"What's up?" I ask looking at her. "Was any of it real?" She asks then look at her questionably. "Did you really love me?" She asks. "Oh." I say nodding my head. "Okay you want an explanation of when things changed?" I ask. "No, I want you to tell me if you did love me, or you were playing with me the whole time." She says. "So you want an explanation. Cause I know there'll be followup questions. I can answer everything you about to ask in my explanation." I say. "Sims did you love me?" She asks looking in front of her. "Yes, I did." I say. "Okay now you can explain." She says then I chuckle and shake my head.

"Check, you know, the day I fell in love with you was that day you found out about me and Andiswa. That was the day I realised alot actually. I got jealous cause my dad wanted to spoil you that day, and didn't even want us in the house. Which was kinda obvious to me that at the end of the night y'all would have sex. Cause at first, when we fucked I didn't care what y'all did, but that day was my ahha moment. I admit, I was a bit indecisive throughout our entire interaction, but I did know that I had fallen for you, hence I told you about Andiswa. That shit was never supposed to come out, but obviously because I know you can't start a relationship on secrets I told you, but your reaction that day." I say shaking my head.

"Fuck dawg. You deadass made me feel like an asshole for telling the truth, then from there I wondered how all our conversations have went when we confronted each other and how things would be after that. That's why I left. I knew the feelings I had for you were just gonna land us both in a dark place. So I left to- for a lack of a better word- forget about you and them. Then you showed up when I was still working on myself. That first day, you did confuse me a bit, your arrival woke up many things. That fight that day bruh. We both know that it was never gonna work. We would've tried, but it wasn't gonna end well. And you know that. So I made a decision to end it right then and there. I didn't wanna break it to you at that second cause even I wasn't sure if I was gonna end up doing it." I say. She wasn't looking at me anymore. Looked like she was thinking hard.

"Anyways, long story short, there's this hun I've been fuck buddies with. Since I arrived in this estate, she has been everything to me. I knew I wanted her eventually. I just wanted to have a bit of fun before all that. Our relationship and also Andiswa's showed me that I'm better off in a relationship cause honestly... Me sleeping with a mother and a daughter can never be something that is normal. Even if y'all are just fuck buddies. Besides, y'all are literally family. It can't be normal bruh." I say shaking my head.