The movie ended about 4 hours ago, and now I'm alone in my room and getting ready to sleep.
I put my hair into a messy bun and remember what bucky said to me after the movie.....
"She's not going to remember a lot for a really long time. Remember me? Remember how long it took me to get back to normal? It's been months, and I still don't feel completely normal yet. Violet, you're my only sense of normalcy."
Wow. That was the best thing I've ever heard.
Bucky is like a warm hug. He's like a warm cup of coffee. Or cocoa. He calms me. He completes me.
Bucky has only been in my life for a couple months, but I feel like I've known him my whole life. I get that feeling a lot when I'm around him. I feel like I've known him before.
I love to look at him. I want to be with him forever. I think maybe... I love him?
There's a knock at my door.
"It's open!" I yell.
Steve opens the door.
"Oh hey Steve, I've actually been meaning to ask you ab-" I'm cut off by a kiss.
"STEVE WHAT WAS THAT?"
"Violet....I just... I need you to know how I feel."
What? How he feels? He feels something for me? This is so unexpected!
"Steve, I have a boyfriend! Your best friend!" I shout back.
"I know, but hear me out. He's not right for you Violet!" He grabs my hands.
"Violet, it's you, and it's always been you! I could never love anyone else the way I love you. You are the light of my life, you are the reason I get up in the morning."
Wow.
Before I think, I kiss him. I kiss him for a long time.
I don't know why. I have a steady boyfriend, whom I love. Steve's words just....I don't know, they just touched me.
Steve has always had a way with words, Bucky, not so much. He likes to take me out, Steve wants to tell me I'm good enough.
A beat goes by.
"Steve, you need to go. Before he sees you."
"Ok. Promise me you'll break up with him tomorrow."
"Ok." I say, knowing I won't.
"Listen, I'm convincing Fury to send him out on a mission. I've come to my senses, and I seriously think Bucky is a spy." He says.
"Steve, how could he be a spy? He couldn't remember anything just a couple of months ago!" I say.
"I know, but I have a couple of theories. You just have to trust me. I'm your best friend, remember?"
"Bye Steve."
"Bye Violet." He goes through the door.
What did I just do? I love Bucky. I'm in love with Bucky. Bucky Bucky Bucky Bucky!! Not Steve!!! Why did I kiss him?? Why did I tell him I was gonna break up with Bucky?
I think for awhile, and I'm just gonna blame it on me being upset about Nat. Yeah, that's totally it...me being upset about Natasha!! I'm gonna end things with Steve first thing tomorrow, and pray Bucky never finds out about this.
