A Dancehall Story - The Final Years. Part 1

Chapter 14 - Always

Chalkline's POV

We were still locked together until the ringing in my ears stopped and that's when I realised that she was crying.

"Stacy, what happened?" I wiped her eyes with a finger.

"Nothing, I'm sorry, I'm just a little overwhelmed" she said as she sobs.

I break away from her and rest my back against the headboard then pull her onto me with her back resting on my chest. I placed the cover over us and held her tightly.

"Talk to me Stacy."

"It's nothing I promise. It's just that I missed feeling this way with you and I missed hearing you tell me how much you love me." she said.

"You know I love you and I tell you all the time in my weird way. I know I should be telling you this everyday but you know how we are and how we get." I said she let out a little laugh.

"I love you and it gets scary at times with us but I know I couldn't be anywhere else."

"Of Course not, coulda hell yuh guh, me and satan war cause me and Mel come wid a big igloo fulla ice. Me and him down a dat .''

"Mel?" she asked.

"Then Hell cyah miss Me? Hell cyah miss she."

"Garrick stop nuh, I'm serious," she said but was still laughing.

"Ok, I'm serious. Look, we are going to do better this time around, for the sake of our family and everyone around us, we are going to do better. Ok?"

We need to start going to church too.

"Can I tell you something?" she asked.

"Sure."

"When I almost died with Melody, I became conscious for a brief moment and all I could hear were voices saying Mrs. Walker, Mrs. Walker, please stay with us over and over. I was there thinking, look what I have done, I don't deserve this man's last name, I don't don't deserve to have the same last name as my children.."

She stopped because she started to cry.

" It's ok you're here now."

"Yes but it triggers me whenever someone calls me Mrs. Walker, I feel like I don't deserve to carry the name." I adjusted my body so I could look at her face while I talked to her.

"Listen to me and listen good, you are the only Mrs. Walker and there will not be another until one of my sons gets married. You are worthy of the name and I knew that from inception. Yuh feel nobody can come take yuh place Stacy? Yuh earned the name, suh wear it proudly."

"I'm sorry for what I put you through and I know I told you this already and you did the same but if we keep reminding each other, then we will be better for each other," she said.

"I don't mind hearing it. Stacy please believe me Yuh earn everything. Yuh prove your love and loyalty to me over and over and I appreciate you more than I can tell you."

You always tell me this. Garrick, It's just that I felt low sometimes because of what I did and hearing you telling me how much you love me still, just makes me wonder if I even deserve you."

"Baby, who fuck up like me and yuh still here a hold it down, nuh matter what? Weh me aguh find that?"

She rested her head on my chest and I hugged her. "I love you Mr. Walker" she said.

"And I love you, my crazy ass, stubborn wife. Don't ever feel like you don't deserve to bare my name yuh hear me? It nuh fit anybody else, Mrs. Walker."