Downfall || Seongjoong

- thirty-one -

Hongjong || Seonghwa 

For some reason, after I met that blue man at the fan sign, everything seemed a little less dull.

No, I haven't seen him again and it has already been 2 days but I feel like there is a little more hope now. 

His words seemed to reassure me and I loved that. I was still skeptical about him as well, he had a picture of both of us I didn't even know existed. 

Sure, I am well aware of my memory loss but no one bothered to remind of him specifially. 

The nurse that took care of me only ever spoke about Haechan and Jaehyun.

Would things be different if I remembered him? I am not too sure. 

All I know is that there is a lot more to this. Whether it was intentional or not, there has to be a reason behind all of it. 

I gathered myself up yet again as I was getting ready for my shoot. 

I was a little out of place today, I kept zoning, mainly thinking back about the male and his interaction with me. 

Think of it as a promise for now. A secret one I'll devote my life to fulfill for you

For me.

Were we really just friends me and him? I never thought I liked man like that. 

Even now, I've only ever had eye for some woman here and there. 

Was I really gay before losing my memory? Is that ever normal? Can I be gay now? 

This was all I could think of at the moment. Still, I had to snap out of it soon enough as my manager shouted at me. 

"Jesus Park Seonghwa! Can't you focus a little more on the job? You need to get me this money, alright!! Stop zoning out and focus back on posing" 

He let out a disappointed sigh and ruffled his hair in frustration. I was getting used to his yelling by now, I simply nodded as I took a deep breath and eventually went back to posing for the camera, following the instructor. 

The shoot went on for a little over two hours. I was constantly changed into outfits and eventually back into my comfortable self as we were heading back to the apartment. 

I was a little excited to be back since my boss was going to be away for the night. Apparently, he had an important dinner at 7 to discuss a potential partnership for me. 

Honestly I didn't care what he planned to do, I just wanted him gone for a while. 

It was 8:30PM now and I was finally done with everything. I took a shower, got my makeup taken off, changed into comfortable pyjamas and finally put on a cream night. 

I decided to scroll through my phone for a while since I wasn't sleepy yet. I opened my phone and as soon as I checked my phone number contacts, I noticed an unfamiliar number had texted me. 

It's nothing new, crazy fans are constantly trying new ways to contact me and get me to reply but this message was different. 

It didn't show any sign of love or craziness, there was no.. 

Oh my god! Seonghwa oppa!! Please reply to my message~~!

It was more like a warning if anything.

unknown ID

8:13PM

Hi. Listen, I need you to trust me on this. I am aware this is odd but if you wish to get out of there, you have to trust me hwa.