Downfall || Seongjoong

- forty-one -

Hongjong || Seonghwa

"Um.. hi? 

I heard a voice behind me utter almost awkwardly. I quickly pushed the gift bag under the bed and stood up. 

I could tell Seonghwa was more than confused as he added awkwardly scratching the back of his head. 

"Am I too early? I can com elater if you-"

"No no! It's okay, I am already down..- uh- have a seat..!" 

I managed to mumbled lowly as I rushed him to his seat across from mine, I gave him the comfy chair and since we usually ate on the couch, in other words, there was no chairs, I ended up sitting across from him on the bed. 

I kept just nervously moving the fork in my plate while looking down at it, thousands of thoughts flooding my brain. 

I squeezed my lips together and eventually seonghwa leaned in a little and to the side speaking. 

"Are you okay? Why are you so.. dense?"

"Uh- Oh yeah- I am fine really I just- eat!"

I said, trying the best to change the subject as I placed some pizza on his plate. 

"You haven't been coming out of your room, you should really eat something, we're probably leaving tomo-"

"I am not hungry. Thank you.."

He replied dryly pushing his plate to the side to give his arms more space to comfortable lay them on it. 

"Ah.. yeah okay.. that's fine." 

I replied as I took the smallest bite from my pizza chewing on it. He watched me eat for what seemed like an eternity and soon got up dusting his sweats- well Yunho's sweats. 

"I see. I have no intention of eating, I should get going" 

He said as he picked his phone up, touching his pocket to make sure he had everything he wanted in there and soon started heading to the door. 

I panicked and eventually got up to stop him. 

"no!" 

I yelled. He stopped in his tracks and looked at me, confusion written all oves his face. He had a raised eyebrow as he looked at me questioning my shouting. 

"Uh- I.." 

I cleared my throat before saying. 

"You can't leave yet, I haven't even given you your gift and there is so much I wanna tell you about, we need to talk and I am just-" 

"Hongjoong. Calm down, I am leaving just get on with it." 

He cut me off as he plopped down on his seat. I felt myself get even more nervous with everything, I figured giving him the gift right now would leave me more time to think of what to say to him. 

And that is exactly what I did, I went down on my knees to get the gift bag I just threw under the bed. Once I finally reached it, I handed it over to seonghwa trying to fic any of the wrinkles I had created on it earlier. 

"Um.. It's not a recent gift, I bought it a while ago but I couldn't find any suitable time to give it to you." 

He once again looked at the bag confused and even tried to give it back but I wouldn't let him. 

"You don't have to gift me anything Hongjoong.. It's not necessary" 

"Still, open it please. It took me time to have it all wrapped nicely.." 

I added insisting. He simply gave in and started digging away the wrapping gently and neatly gathering it on the table. 

Eventually, a logo was faintly visible but I could tell Seonghwa recognized it right away and he seemed to get somewhat excited to open the rest. 

He straightened his posture and no longer gather any of the wrapping his ripped. Eventually, with his last wrapping being throw away, a big lego sit, a ship precisely, was revealed to the male. 

"I didn't know which lego set you'd like but I mean, you were always crazy about mars, and anything that had to do with satellites world.. I am not.. well too sure you remember.. but I tried to pick the gift that best matched you and-" 

I couldn't even finish because eventually, I could feel arms wrapping around me and at first I could barely process the action. 

Seonghwa was hugging me tightly as he added. 

"Of course I remember! How did you even find a set of Rossi, it's so rare to see it around and I am sure it cost a lot, you really didn.t have to Hongjoong.. thank you" 

He seemed just so happy with this gift that most would deem childish. But maybe that's exactly what Seonghwa needed at the moment. 

Something childish to replace his memories. 

And Hongjoong was ready to be all the child Seonghwa wanted to see him happy for a while. 

Seonghwa started to open the box from the top to see the lego and the little catalog that came along, he smiled so innocently and placed the box back in the bag easily and neatly. 

The great part was finally done but now.. comes the hard one. 

Actually, discussing us. 

I sat down on the bed across from him again as I said. 

"Um.. Actually, I am sure you know the gift isn't why I brought you here.."

"Yeah, you wanted me to criticize your little poem since well I am a singer of the sort"

"Well.. No not really, that was an excuse for you to come.. I just-"

I stopped speaking for a while, covering my face to breath and gather myself up for a while. 

"I want to apologize for everything I have ever done to you Seonghwa, you're so pure hearted and just- I wronged you so much throughout the past.. years. I drove you insane then drove myself insane for driving you insane and its just-" 

I allowed myself a little breath before moving my hands, I hadn't even realized some tears were starting to form in my eyes. 

"I am sure this is selfish but I.. I want to have you back. I promise to be better in every sense, I'll trust you withe everything in me, even if anything happens I won't leave you.. I only want to be by your side, to see you smile, to make you smile and to..-"

..kiss you.

...kiss? kiss?! Seonghwa is kissing me? 

That was exactly how my brain processed Seonghwa's lips on mine at the moment. It took me a while to realize how his hand rested firmly at the back of my head caressing my hair gently. 

It took me a while to realize his lips were dancing almost perfectly with mine, forming little sounds I didn't even know lips were capable of making.

I eventually pushed him away, just gently and barely really, he was that strong. 

His eyes quivered, seemingly searching for any signs regarding the kiss before saying. 

"Does that no answer y-" 

"No seonghwa.. I want to hear it from you, words.. tell me.. words so I understand, speak to me.. don't kiss me" 

I said, coming out more as a whisper as he looked at me for a while

"I feel the same.. You might have sick intentions again but something in me tells me you won't hurt me again.. I want you to be mine as well.. I want you to be mine again.." 

He said as he hugged me closely before adding. 

"Does this answer you?"

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hehehehe ending this a bit too soon perhapps?