Downfall || Seongjoong

- forty-two -

Hongjong || Seonghwa 

I watched him nod as he cupped my face in his hands his eyes meeting mine for a breath moment before he says. "I am sorry for everything I have ever done to you.. explicitly or not.. I want you to know that I regret hurting you more than anything in this entire world." 

"Is this really happening?" I whisper to him. "What?" he blinks, trying to stay focused on my eyes. Not my lips. "You feel so real," I remark again reaching out to his cheek. "You sound so real. I want so badly for this to be real." I add again staring into his eyes.

"This is real," he reassures me. "And things are going to get better. Things are going to get so much better. I promise." I take a tight breath. "The scariest part," I manage to utter, so quietly, "is that for the first time in my life, I actually believe that."

I look at him for a bit longer and once again, the distance between our lips is gone and I melted instantly. How could it be so amazing to kiss someone? It was just one touch, but it meant so much and triggered so much in me. I felt a tingling sensation all over my body that I could not describe. It was a feeling that you had to experience yourself to know what it was. 

The kiss became a little more passionate and Hongjoong's free hand moved behind my neck to pull me towards him. Our fingers were still intertwined and although it had been just a kiss as the one they shared that night, it felt way more romantic and intimate.

Eventually, in one smooth motion, I released myself from my position and slid back onto Hongjoong. Our lips did not part. They were as if fused together, harmonizing with each movement. My hands moved into Hongjoong's hair tugging on it, at the same time pressing Hongjoong's head against mine. It was a gentle and heartfelt movement just like this kiss.

After a while of kissing and me forgetting which way was up or down, we broke away and I simply looked into Hongjoong's glazed eyes. "That was perfect," I whispered, gently cupping Hongjoong's face. "You are perfect.", Hongjoong replied, bringing another smile to my face.

I leaned toward him and gave him a fleeting, loving kiss then stroked Hongjoong's forehead and cheek. "Your face is so beautiful.", I added still whispering and looked into Hongjoong's eyes again. Hongjoong's pulse immediately increased. He was on the verge of crying.

Devotedly, he bent up and gave me a kiss as well. Then he let his head sink back into the pillow. "You are even more beautiful." he said in a raspy voice. And I felt that even a thousand words could not describe how I felt right now.

I lowered my head onto Hongjoong's shoulder and buried my face into the crook of his neck.Hongjoong hugged me and closed his eyes. It was perfect and I almost forgot just how calm and happy moment like these made me feel.

"Seonghwa?" Hongjoong spoke against my head. His voice sounded so loving. "Hm?", I went on. "Do you think you're ready...", he stopped for a moment and I didn't miss how he held his breath. Slowly he opened his eyes and looked at the ceiling. "To be my boyfriend again?" Hongjoong finally finished his sentence.

This was the last thing I had expected from Hongjoong today. We kissed, he said he wanted my to be his but I was so sure he'd need some time to think it through but he seems so sure to want me to be his boyfriend. I looked at him somewhat surprised but of course, my answer was already clear with the way my eyes sparkled at his request. 

"So, do you think you can forgive me enough to go out with me again?" He asked once more and I instantly nodded. "I am willing to trust you again but please, promise me to never leave me again" I urged as I stretched my pinky out and he immediately intertwined his with mine. "You have my word, I pinky promise it to you. 

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