mechanic - calum hood a.u.

chapter twenty-three

"Dear Calum,
I fücked Ashton." I scribbled on a piece of paper the best ways to tell Calum what had happened when Ashton and I got to my house while my boyfriend had been taking care of his sister.

I decided to end this nonsense by simply telling Calum I had made a mistake, but I couldn't even say that because, in fact, it wasn't a mistake, for me, at least, it wasn't. I questioned my feelings for Calum since day one and more than ever I questioned them in Italy.

Ashton had left after we did the do because I had just gotten a text from Calum saying he was coming home. I managed to get everything nice and tidy before he got home but the excuse of him being tired got him to sleep while I pondered on everything.

I decided to text Ashton about it, sometimes I don't make very rational decisions. We proceeded on texting about our feelings for each other and me explaining that I just don't know. When I was messaging Ashton we both agreed that it was best for me to cut it short with Calum. Of course that wouldn't mean getting together with Ashton straight away.

By this point my dad had woken up and was now in the kitchen making himself a cup of coffee.

"Lilian, we need to talk."

Calling me Lilian was something I wasn't used to hearing from my father's mouth so I knew it would be something serious.

"Sure. What happened?" I asked, concerned.

"Mali stepped by the garage soon after you went home because her car broke down."

"Oh, so she was better already?"

"I thought the same thing, and questioned her about it actually, turns out she was never sick and she didn't call Calum in the first place. He's been lying to you, Lilo."

"Yeah, I haven't been completely honest either..."

"Ashton?"

"How did you know?"

"I could feel the sexual tension between you two from miles away, Lilo. Just be careful, will you?"

"I will dad, I promise. I'm breaking up with Calum and just keeping things on the surface for a while before diving in deep into anything."

"I just don't want you to be like your mother okay? If you don't love the kid, just tell him. Sure, he probably has someone else either, but just be honest with him and hope he will come clean too."

"Thanks for everything dad." I hugged him.

The best thing for me to do was just wait until Calum wakes up and then break up with him and so I did.

"Calum." I tried pushing him away as he tried to hug me. "We need to talk."

"What's wrong babe?"

"I want to take a break from our relationship. You know I love you but I need some time."

"It's Ashton isn't it? I'm going to kill the fücking prick."

"Wow, way to go Calum. Sure, blame Ashton. Also, do you mind telling Mali that my dad has her car ready today at 6? She stepped by the garage yesterday."

"This isn't what it looks like."

"Sure it isn't, Calum. Just get your things and go. Please."

"Goodbye, princess."

guys I am so sorry, i promised I would update more often but i don't think i can. this chapter is shït, i'm sorry for that as well but i really forced myself to write it just for the sake of the story.
i'm getting into a bad place lately so i'm sorry if i disappoint you and let you down, i never meant to do it but i can't pretend i'm fine or that i have tons of ideas and inspiration when i don't. I'm sorry guys, i love you all so much, thank you for everything. goodbye.