This Is...A Happy Home

Eighteen!

I see Tig is already at the hospital when we arrive, he gives us a minute with Clay. Jax grabs the blood thinner out from his jacket pocket and goes to enter it in to Clay's IV, whilst I close the blinds. Clay begins to wake up and I go over to him with my knife drawn. I press my knife down in to Clay's throat. "I read the letters. I know you killed our father, Piney, you tried to kill Tara." I growl. Clay hated that I found out about this knowing Gemma must have helped us figure that out. "Little Lex please," Clay tries to say. I frown as he calls me that not wanting him to use that nickname. "Don't me that. The only reason I am not slicing you open right now is because we need this Cartel deal to happen. Even those prick Irish men won't deal with anyone else." I growl even more. "I need to tell you something," he says. I shake my head not wanting to hear what he needed to say thinking he is trying to get out of it. "No. You're done telling us anything. Now we tell you, you're stepping down as president. You can sit at the table, you can have a vote, but that's it. You keep the Irish happy and you stay out our god damn way. If you don't I let the club read the letters and I let Opie tell everyone that you murdered his old man," I say sternly. Clay already knowing the answer to what he is about to ask, asks anyway wanting hear it from me. Some kind of confirmation. "Who gave you the letters?" Clay asks. I push the blade in to his throat drawing blood as I do, not wanting to hear him talk. "Doesn't matter. You stay away from Tara and our mother. Do. You. Understand." I tell him sternly. Jax places Clay's kutte across his chest and rips off the president patch with his own knife. We leave the hospital room and Gemma walks in to the waiting area. Jax goes over to her, "I changed my mind about leaving Charming," he says knowing he can't leave now. Gemma smiles, "Okay," she says happy about that.

I can't look at my mother, not after what she said to me. I exit the hospital. Tig notices this and walks over to Jax and Gemma. "Is Lex okay?" he asks worried about me. Gemma sighs hating that Tig has noticed this. "No, she didn't like me being a bitch back to her," she says. Jax sighs as well hating how me and our mother haven't made up yet. "Ah right. Might be the grief, I mean her and Piney were quite close when she was little. A second father to her almost. Maybe that is why she is acting out," Tig says. Jax thinks that maybe Tig has a point since grief does affect people in different ways.

I head to the clubhouse, whilst Jax goes back to his place to tell Tara the news about him staying. I catch sight of Gemma sitting on the swings. I sigh to myself thinking this is a better time of any to make things right with my mother. I wander over to her and sit on the swing beside her. I observe her burning something. "Look, I don't want to fight okay. I want to apologise," I say. Gemma looks at me and smiles slightly, "Okay that's fine," she says. To be honest I am amazed at her reaction, not expecting her to be so calm about it. "I thought you would be more shocked that I wanted to apologise to you. I guess you had a feeling I would come crawling back to you sooner rather than later," I say kicking my feet as I swing slowly. Gemma always had that motherly instinct that knew when her kids wouldn't be angry at her forever. "You're my daughter at the end of the day you were bound to come crawling back to say sorry, and I'm sorry too," she tells me. I smile slightly loving how she tells me that. "You're right. I forgive you. You know I could never hate you forever," I admit knowing you only get one mother. "I know," Gemma says. I place my hand on hers and stroke it with my thumb. "I never meant to be so vile towards you. I was so angry and I am still heartbroken about Piney. All these secrets got a bit too much and I went cold," I open up to her. Gemma strokes my hand as well, "I understand that," she says. I look down at my feet glad that I am now sharing my feelings with her and she is understanding. "I'm such a shitty person, I keep pushing everyone away thinking I am going to end up alone anyway, which sounds so stupid. My worst fear is being on my own," I confess. "I know but you'll never lose me," she assures me. I smile at that happy she assured me. Gemma smiles back at me. I take my hand away from hers and continue to swing. "Bet I can swing higher than you," I giggle. Gemma laughs as I say this and she begins to swing as well. I love these moments with my mother. "Oh, I bet you can't," she says as she begins to swing a little higher.

Jax walks in to his house seeing Tara in the living room with their two boys. He kisses their cheeks before smiling slightly at Tara. "I decided to stay," he reveals. Tara stares at him in shock already having a feeling they would never really be leaving. "What? No. We had this whole plan Jax," she says wondering if this is all down to Gemma. "I know, I know and I'm sorry okay," Jax says feeling bad for letting her down. Tara is so upset. "So what happens now? You stay and continue taking orders from Clay?" she asks wondering if this is going to be their life from now on. Jax shakes his head knowing there is a new plan in place. "No, I'm going to be president of the club," he admits, shocking Tara even more. "When did you make that choice?" she asks hating this, not wanting him to take over. She worries that she is losing him. "Earlier," Jax tells her. Tara still doesn't like this idea at all she gets concerned about what this means for their future. "What happens with me and the boys? Oregon still need an answer from me for the job," Tara says. Jax didn't want to ruin her future just because he had to stay. "Take the boys with you and take the job," he tells her. Tara had no idea what to do. She watches as Jax kisses her head and walks away. She begins to cry when she hears the door close. "He's mine," she cries to herself. She listens as Jax's Harley rides off.

I see Jax ride in to the parking lot on his bike and he walks inside the clubhouse. I stop the swing, "I best go in," I say as I kiss her cheek and jump off the swing. "I think I went higher than you by the way," I smile as I enter the clubhouse. I walk in to Chapel and spot Jax sat at the head of the table with the president patch in his hand. I always thought Opie will be his VP, but what I had no idea about is that Opie didn't want to be VP for the club. Chibs walks in behind me along with the rest of the lads. Tig goes to sit on the left hand side of Jax, but, Jax stops him. Instead, he gets Chibs there instead. I look at the right hand side of Jax wondering who is going to be his VP. Jax smiles at me, "How would you feel about being my VP?" he asks. I smile not expecting that at all, feeling honoured as I go to take my seat. "I will not let you down," I say. He hands me his VP patch, I take it whilst smiling. He grins, "I hope not," he says. I feel like this is where I belong, at the table as VP of the club my father founded. "I promise I'm all focused now brother," I assure him. The rest of the lads take their places at the table. "To new beginnings right," I say. Grins spread around the table from all the lads as I say this. "To new beginnings," they say agreeing with me. I turn my direction to my older brother and give him a smile, "I'm proud of you. You worked hard for this," I say. Jax smiles slightly wondering if he is doing the right thing.

Tara enters Chapel seeing everyone in there. "Oh sorry," she says as she looks at everyone. I smirk wondering how she took the news about Jax deciding to stay. "It's ok," I say as I watch her walk over to Jax. "I'm not going anywhere, I am staying if you're staying," Tara informs him. Jax grins happy that he will be able to keep his family in one piece. "Okay," he says. Tara smiles slightly and kisses him passionately before withdrawing. She stands behind him and places her arm around him. I glance over at the doorway seeing my mother is standing there staring at Jax and Tara.

I know this is the end of an era for the club with a new president and a female VP.