BOUND BY HATRED | Sookook

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Jisoo

"You know, as a child I don't always wish for costly gifts or chocolates, I just need a happy family. Mine was never that kind of family. My father always thrived to became a top-class politician. He married my mother not out of love but just to have a family. When I was born, he was happy to have a child because that time he can show off to his vote bank that how progressive he is to have it a single child and that too a girl. As the time passed by, my mother came to know that he's having an affair. She was devastated because she loved him with everything she had. I was in the middle school when that happened and the day, I knew this was the day my childhood ended. I remember one night my father came home and he had a huge fight with my mother. I was in my room and didn't want to steal out of it because I was scared but soon my mother screams started echoing and I couldn't help but run towards their room. Through the window I saw that my father was kicking my mother in her stomach. I froze at my place and badly wanted to stop him but I didn't. I didn'tind because I was too scared that he'll beat me too"

"My mother cried, hugging his legs and whispering all the apologise in the world. I wondered why she's apologising when he's the one who hit her then later I came to know that she was apologising for shouting at him because she doesn't want him to leave her. She was madly in love with him. But he didn't stop, he kept on abusing her and beating her. That was the first time when I saw that disgusting side of my father but I had no idea that it was just the start"

"It became the story of every night, he'll come home drunk and beat her, sometimes with his shoe other times with his leather belt and my mother, she just tolerated everything and still cooked food for him and did everything which could make him happy. And one day when I had enough of this, I asked my mother from where did her bruises came from but instead of telling me the truth, she lied that she fell in the bathroom. As the day passed by, I started skipping school and no one would notice. I started neglecting my meals because M didn't have enough strength to see if I'm eating food that cooked by the maids or not"

"Every night, I would cry in my room hearing the screams of my mother. I started staying in my mother's room and took care of her by putting an ointment on her bruises. I would feed her, clean her wounds and massage her head. She somehow realised that I know everything. She loved me, I was sure if it because even though her body was aching, she still makes me a bowl of hot Ramen with cheese and egg and even serve it to me with cranberry juice. I enjoyed eating the food she made for me and told her stories to make her laugh. She would smile but It'll never reach her eyes. I thought that once I grow up, I'll take my mother far away from my father but before that could happen. One day, she come to my room and hugged me tightly into her arms, more than this she even cried like there's no tomorrow. She told me that she's going to leave me for now but promised me that she'll return to me one day. She also took a promise from me about something. And with that, she left me. That time I was leave all alone in the big house. Father would come and asked about my studies and bring me chocolates and gift but every time I try to look at him, he always reminded me of all the tears that mo mother shed because of him. I started despising him a d soon after a month, he took her home. The woman who wrecked our house, my step mother. He married her because she was the daughter of an influential family who would help him to make his political dream come true. That woman hated me and always told me that why I didn't go with my mother"

"When my father wasn't home, she would hit Mr and out mf locked up in the attic. I remember falling unconscious every time she locked me up there because the place was full of spiders and rats. The rats would bite my feet and when she unlock the door, I would come out with blood oozing out f my feet's flash. Then I used to apply ointments to my wounds and cry myself to sleep. She also gave me food only once in two days and when I asked more, she'll forcefully stuff my mouth with fish because she knew that I am allergic of it. I started falling my classes and because of that, principle called my father and told him how irresponsive I am in school, that how i never di my homework and how i failed in every single tests. My father became angry but didn't say anything to me I instead he hired tend of tuition teachers who would teach me for whole day. I had no option but to study because I was scared that once I failed another exam, my farther would also hit me like he did to my mother. This tuition teacher thing continued till I reached Hugh school. I was tired of everything. I also lost the hope that my mother would ever return. So finally, I decided to end everything. I decided to end my life but then something happened and thankfully I didn't commit suicide" I told Jungkook. I told him everything. I've never said all this to anyone but him. I shared my worse past.