BOUND BY HATRED | Sookook

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Jisoo's POV

"Jisoo?" Jungkook's voice echoed in the kitchen as he walked through the door, his eyebrows creasing together in confusion when he saw me.

"Yes" I answered.

"Why are you here?" He asked, his voice choking as it he wasn't believing any of this.

I rolled my eyes. "Really? I thought you once said that you don't forget anything next morning after getting drunk" My heart flutter as the memories hit me of that time when he was drunk and we had sex. I was pretty scared that he might get angry or probably he won't remember any of it but then he said that he never forgets anything.

"I didn't hurt you, right?" He asked his lips quivering. His voice sounded like he was scared that I might say yes.

I pressed my lips into thin line. "No. But you hurt yourself by smashed glass bottles over your own head" And trust me that hurts me even more than anything.

He slowly nodded. His eyes flickering over my face fir a brief pause before he killed everywhere but me. "I-i was drunk. You don't have to be here. I'm sorry for everything, I really can't recall anything that happened last night. You can go. I'll call the driver to drop yo-"

"Jungkook, calm down" insayd cutting him off leaning against the nearest wall, I stared at his face. "I'm not going anywhere. I'll be here, I'll be with you"

"But why? Didn't you said that you wanted to leave me? Didn't you had leave me for 3 months already? What's the point to coming back again? I really don't understand about your mind"

"Can't I live here anymore?" Instead of answering, I threw him a question.

He immediately shook his head. "No. Of course not. It's my house and it's your house as well because we are still husband and wife"

"Okay" I simply reply. Our eyes met and everything around me froze for a moment. I forgot everything but him. His tired eyes bore into me like he wanted to say something so much but had no idea from where to start. I've read somewhere that your eyes can never lie. And I'd be dammed if I say that I haven't carved for him. My heart beats only for him and it'll forever be the same. I want to take a step and engulf him into my arms and feel the rhythm of his heart beating against mine. I want to inhale his familiar cologne and let my mind be filled with the thought of him and only him.

The tip of my fingers are aching to touch his skin and let my soul sink into it. I want to feel the pain, the heartbreak, the betrayal, the fear. I want to cry in his arms because of him.

"Promise me something" I said not breaking the eye contact.

"Anything Jisoo"

"Promise me that if someday I ask you to tell me the truth, you won't tell me even if you want to"

"What truth? What are you talking about, Jisoo?"

"Just promise me"

"Okay, I promise" He whispered even he still not understand what I mean.

I pushed saliva down my throat and was about to turn around when he came to me and cornered me against the wall before smashing his lips over mine. I leave out a gasped, not knowing what to do. i thought of pushing him away but his kiss consumed me. Part of me just wanted to let everything go and feel him to my bones. So I did, I did kiss him back with everything I have. My mouth brushing with sensations of him that I missed in the past three months.

He was rough but this time I was more hungry for him. I was hungry to let my pain melt away in him. He then grabbed my face in between his palms and deepend the kissed like his life  was dependent on me. I clutched his shirt for a second before I started unbuttoning his shirt. He grabbed me by the waist and pulled me up only to make me sit on the kitchen's counter. He tiled his head and depended the kiss, the tip of his tongue tracing my teeth as he slowly shoved his tongue inside my mouth.