I would've loved her

Letter 04

Dear Jungkook,

Love at this point if you are not Jungkook and are reading this, I hope you die soon, so I beat you to shit when you meet me in the afterlife.

Anyway, you know you are super hot when your parents get worried about your clothes.

You are just 18, why do you need to have your hair open. You so young why do you suddenly want to try make up. You are so young, why are you wearing such heels. Are you whore? Why are you wearing such skimpy clothes.

"I ask your mother to warn you about your clothes because if I speak you won't find it nice"

Lmao, was I really that hot? I always found it annoying that my parents believed I had heard of guys following me because I was seeking for attention when I was also called ugly.

Either stop calling me ugly or stop calling me a whore.

Ugly and whore don't go in the same line.

My mother called a hairstylist to chop off my hair. It's irrational but I'm genuinely attached to my hair.

I had to beg and plead but that didn't do. She beat me with an award she won. It stabbed me in my stomach.

She felt guilty so she didn't cut my hair off. I'm happy atleast I still have my hair.

I won't be able to eat ramen for a while though, there were a lot of stiches.

Oh and yeah ramen. One day I promise I'll eat a full packet of ramen with cheese, chicken and kimchi. Everything all at once.

I can already feel the saliva in my mouth thinking about this. I'll eat it whole and I won't tell my mom and oh god I'm so excited.

Carbs without any fear must feel great. I wish I was slimmer and prettier, I could eat all of those without getting shit for it.

My headaches have gotten worse and worse, I think I should go to a doctor. Sometimes I'm not sure if I'm rich or poor, because my standard of living is high but I have no money to spend. I hope I become independent as soon as possible, I really want to spend freely. I don't want to report even buying bandages or something.

Also lina really really likes you, when I die try comforting her. She must be mourning, you'll hit it off if you comfort her.

Love,
Ju Won.

My tears were non stop. She was gorgeous and she wasn't a whore.

She was the nicest human known to man kind. How messed up were her parents thought process to wire her innocent activities into something twisted as if she was someone hineous.

They beat her until she was stabbed? The same woman who felt guilty only after they really killed her?

All the beautiful things about her and no one ever told her about it. How can everyone do her like this. If only I know people around her were shit, I would do better. So much goddamn better.

How I wish, I can meet her again. So I can have ramen with her, a full plate. Oh how I wish I stole her from the world.