I would've loved her

Letter 05

Dear Jungkook,

I'm grateful Jungkook, thank you for reading till the fifth letter.

It's funny that you are heard more after dying than you ever will be alive.

Mom thought I broke the champagne glasses she brought from china.

I told her, I didn't.

She said she couldn't trust me, my day was already going bad. Ryung said something about me being the ugliest in the group. I had already accepted that but it didn't hurt me anymore. However, today it did.

They were all laughing. Ryung likes da Hye, he says that to comment about how beautiful she is.

She is beautiful actually but I don't know. It's not like he was lying.

Anyways, she kept asking me to be honest and I repeatedly said I was. At the end, she snapped and threw my bag at me.

My favourite claw clip broke and the pink colour bottle I liked shattered into pieces flooding my bag drenching my notebooks in the process.

I have to write those notes again, the notebook is in ruins. I hoped I could study since I was done with the notes.

I was in my balcony starring at the guard house at the end of our drive way.

Ryung says his father is in Japan because of his posting. He doens't know the house his father guards is mine.

I watch as Ryung wears his hoodie, covers himself to toe to give his father his dinner.

Often his elder sister delivers the food but she probably has her state exams since he came here to give the food.

He knows I love in this area, just not exactly where.

I found out about this a month ago, and kept quiet about it. It felt weird confronting about it to him. So I didn't. The fact dies with me today. Oh wait, maybe at my funeral Ryung will know where his dad worked.

Also Jungkook, the black tee shirt you wear, it doesn't look cheap, it's hot.

Love,
Ju won.

I closed the letter. The guy Ryung had a beef against me, I once wore a Calvin Klein shirt to school, I didn't want to fake flexing, I just wore it cause it looked cool and Ryung made fun of it, calling me cheap.

Ju won pushed Ryung and asked him to shut up but she didn't say anything to me, guess what she actually did. I just got to hear it late.

My hate for Ryung multiplied right now. The guy was extremely fake, and he pushed his own insecurities on Ju won, the one person who was safeguarding his ego.

The one person who brought him to friendship when he was a side loner.

I really wanted to get up and smash his head against the wall or something. But these letters mattered to me more right now. Her soul was here in my room right now with me.

In the form of these letters. I put this letters on the pile to my side and picked the next one.