He is my Hero

Chapter 2: Come On Now

I was supposed to be on my third month, and I hadn't told Hiro yet. Another thing was that I didn't have any symptoms, or weight gain. No, I thought. That was the only thing that I knew would keep Hiro here with me. I decided to check again. 

After waiting, I checked it. Damn-it, I thought. I wasn't pregnant. It had been a false pregnancy. I blew out threw my nose. Just then the door opened. I was still mad at Hiro, so I didn't go to greet him. "Hey." He said, wrapping his arms around my waist. I wiggled free, and grabbed my purse. "You're still mad?" He asked. I put my hand on the front door knob, and turned it. "Well, I called them, and the gang and I leave tomorrow." Hiro said. I stopped. Midway out the door. I turned to face him. How could he do that? "I did." Hiro said again. I gave him my angriest glare, and then slammed the door. 

I didn't want to talk to anyone in the group, not even Zoe, so I went to the cemetery. But on my there I bought some flowers, and the rest of the walk I picked some wildflowers.

At the cemetery, I first visited Tadashi's grave, which was beside his parents. I put the flowers that I bought on their graves in three equal piles. I smiled. Then I walked to my mother's grave. A tree was growing over her's. And beside the tombstone was a vase. I put the wildflowers in that one. I smiled, even as a tear rolled down my cheek. I miss you mom, I thought. Sometimes I felt that I could hear her voice saying that she missed me too, or that she loved me. I sat beside the tombstone, with my back against the tree. And began eating the food that I had brought. That's when a thought occurred to me. Why didn't Hiro ever make a suit for me? Yet he did for everyone else? I stood up, and decided to go do that.

"Glad you're home." Hiro said, about to kiss me, but I managed to dodge him. Then I handed him my note. "Oh... I never had the time." He said. I gave him a look. "I didn't." Hiro said defensively. I gave him another look. "Oh... Well... the thought never occurred to me." I gave him another look. "Yeah, the whole four years we have been together." He said. I gave him another look. "Because..." More looks. "Because-" Another look, but he knew that if I could talk, I would have yelled this one. "Because I can't lose you!" He yelled back. He blushed. I was frozen. He sighed, and grabbed my arms, "It's too dangerous (Y/N). I can't lose you." He said. I yanked my arms away, and grabbed a piece paper and a pen. "So that means that I have to stay here? Hoping you came back alive?"  He sighed again. "Yes." He said. "Ever wonder if maybe I can't live without you either?" I wrote. "No... Not really." He said truthfully. I could feel my eyes water, I bit my lip, and pointed at the couch. "You're making me sleep on the couch for this?" He asked. I nodded. "That is stupid! I'm going o be helping out other people! Is that not enough? Because if it's not, then wow, you sure are selfish and greedy." He said. I widened my eyes, and his face was amazed. Amazed that he just said that to me. "(Y/N) I didn't mean that." He said. I pushed by him, and stomped up the stairs with Hiro calling my name.

Upstairs in our room, I slammed the door, locked it, laid my back against it, slid down, buried my face in my knees, and cried. I cried out of frustration, anger, and sadness. He was leaving me. He was really going to. And we didn't know if he would come back alive form whatever he had to do.