Addicted to him

What if he doesn't like me.

Noeul : Are we not going to talk about what happened?

Boss : There's nothing to talk about, what happened was a mistake.

Noeul : A mistake?

Boss : Do I have to repeat myself? It was a mistake, just forget about it, Noeul.

Noeul : I can't forget about it, Boss..that was my first kiss and they say you never forget your first kiss.

Boss..

I was his first kissed.

Boss : I don't care if it was your first kiss or not, it didn't mean anything to me.

Noeul : But you said that you liked me?

Boss : I-i like you as a friend. We're just friends, noeul.

Noeul : We're not just friends and you know it. Just friends don't look at each other like that, just friends don't hold each other like we do. We'll never be just friends, we've past that.

I understand what you're going through but you can't change who you are. There's nothing wrong with liking someone of the same sex as you.

Boss : You have no idea what am going through. I'm leaving and don't try and stop me!

Noeul : WHAT ARE YOU SO AFRAID OF!?

Why are you so afraid to admit that you like me!?

Boss..

I know I shouldn't talk to him or say all these things to him, after him giving me the best kissed of my life......but am so sorry noeul I need to figure out how to deal with all this new feelings and about our family never ending hates towards each other.

If I run away with him I know my Dad won't rest until he killed him and I can't let that happens I can't lose him...I need time to come up with something.

Please give me more time noeul, i can't let you know all this now I don't want to scare you more.....but I have to do this....because I like you so much that am even sure I have falling for you already.

Boss : Because if I admit that I like you it becomes real! God noeul, open your fucking eyes. What we're doing isn't just forbidden, it's dangerous! Our lives are on the line. Which is why you have to forget about what happened, Because I can't loose you. Goodnight, noeul.

Noeul started crying and sobbing..

Noeul : No, d-don't go! Don't leave me, B-boss please don't l-leave me.

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Boss keeps tossing around his room..

Boss..

I feel awful. If what I did was the right thing, then why do I feel so bad? I have to keep reminding myself that what I did was to protect him. My Dad would kill him if he found out about all these and I can't let that happen....All the time we've spent together, all the time we've held each other..

That kiss felt so fucking right. It was beautiful, supernatural and breath taking, I can't remember the last time I've kissed someone like that. Kissed someone and felt like there were fireworks going off inside my chest.
Kissed someone and felt like my soul was crying put in glorious triumph. Kissed someone and actually meant it .

God, he's just a boy with black hair and brown eyes, so why am I addicted to him more than I am to any drug? I think I need to talk to someone because am actually going crazy...Noeul you're making me go crazy with all these new feelings.