Defiance: Regulus Black x OC

12

I woke up to the warm feeling of the sun on my face from outside my window. I laid for a few minutes going over the events of the night before, the things that happened. 

I am no longer pure.

By law, I am no longer allowed to wear the color white, after losing your purity. Technically I was supposed to stop wearing white right after.

I am not pure, and I don't even know what it felt like.

Is it enjoyable? Does it feel good? 

I forced myself out of the bed before slipping on a light blue dress. I went to the bathroom deciding to do my makeup on my own today, not to use magic. I can finally be slow, not everything needs to be rushed, forced. I can allow myself to live a happy life, a happy marriage. He remembers me now. Maybe we can become friends again.

I walked out of my room to head downstairs to make breakfast. Unfortunately the house elf beat me to that. "Good morning, Miss." He said softly before walking out of the room. "Kreacher?" I questioned, surprised they let us have him. "Master is not home right now, Miss, He asked me to tell you to not leave the house." I looked over at him losing the color and smile that was originally plastered on my face. "Kreacher." I said again, more serious this time. "Where is he."

"Master asked I do not tell." He said softly. 

"I am your master just as he is and I command you to tell me where he is." I snapped at him causing him to take a step back before bowing. 

"He is meeting with the Dark Lord at Malfoy Manor Miss." 

I shot up from my seat. "Miss he asked that you do not leave." He said stepping in front of me. 

"I have never been one to follow rules." I scoffed forcing Malfoy Manor into my head. I wouldn't know how to get here without apperation. I focused on the cold tiles, and the dark rooms. I focused on the meeting room with the long table where they would most likely be. I focused until I felt myself standing in the room. I slowly opened my eyes to see Regulus on the ground withering while the Dark Lord stood behind him. I dropped my hands running over and throwing my arms around Regulus. 

"Stop!" I shouted at the Dark Lord. "Please!" I shouted again until he began laughing and I could see Regulus's breathing stabilize again. 

"Regulus?" I questioned. "What happened, why are you here, you said we have two days to ourselves." 

"He knows." He whispered his voice shaking. 

I glanced over to see the Dark Lord sitting at the table again before two chairs slid out on either side of him. Two chairs meant for the only other two in the room. I slowly rose to my feet grabbing Regulus's hand and walking towards the table. I sat down as he pushed my chair in before walking around to his own. 

"My Dear." The Dark Lord began. "I have eyes everywhere, Did you truly think you could see your brother and I would not know." A smile spreading across his face.

I felt my stomach drop. 

"You both betrayed me."

"Whoever you informant is ask them what we said" I snapped interrupting his thoughts. "We spoke nothing of you plans. I just simply wanted to see my brother on my wedding day." 

"I know!" He snapped pulling his wand and pointing it towards me. "I know you spoke nothing but he is the other side! He does not believe our values, he is with a mud-blood!" He shouted at me before a grin plastered across his face. "Crucio"

I felt my whole body swallow itself. I couldn't tell if I was screaming or not. I pushed myself off the chair, trying to crawl out of my own skin. I felt my head hit the marble floor hard before I could slightly see red liquid trickling around me. I felt like an imposter in my own skin, my organs all fighting each other as my blood tried to rush out of my body in attempt to escape. I felt arms wrap around me and soft whispers pulling me back in. I felt hands slowly hold my arms still. I heard screaming but I couldn't tell if it was mine or not before my body went limp and everything began to be dark. 

I woke up in my own bed, in my own home. A tray of food and water laid next to me on a table. I shot up too quickly before my head began pounding and I ran to the bathroom to throw up. I sat in front of the toilet heaving but nothing came out. I felt myself fall to the floor grabbing my knees to my chest before letting out soft sobs. I've never felt a pain like that. A life swallowing pain. 

"Bella?" I heard him softly whisper crouching down next to me. "It's okay, you're safe now." He continued before reaching his hand out, but I flinched and pulled myself closer to my chest making him sigh and pull it away. "I am truly sorry. I do not know how he found out. I asked around, no one followed us that night, it had to have been-"

"Someone in the order." I cut him off. "I know." I want to tell James. I need to tell James, someone is betraying them. "Can I write to my brother, is that safe?" I glanced up to see his face more gaunt than usual and red circling his eyes. He's been crying. 

"No, I'm sorry." He continued. "They're is people watching our house now, they'll intercept it." 

"I can apperate there." I questioned. 

"No, you cannot. They put anti apperation spells on both of us. We now have to be escorted to meetings." He paused as if there was something else something big. He glanced down at my arm and I hadn't even noticed the bandage across my left forearm. 

"No." I whispered as I felt the tears begin streaming down my face. "No!" I shouted this time ripping the bandage off my write to see what I knew was coming. I went silent. "I am going to-"

"Do not say the rest of that sentence Bella. Now that you have that mark if you even mention his name he will know of it." 

I've lost everything. I mumbled to myself. He scooted closer in attempt to hear what I was saying. "I have lost everything Regulus. The worst part is it was all for you. I have lost my brother, my friends, my life and now my free will." I felt tears steaming down my face. "All I wanted to do was save you, and end him. And now here I am, Married to you. I woke up this morning excited, so very excited to start our new lives, live in peace." I paused trying to catch my breath. "But now I see that was never an option for us was it Reg." 

He glanced over at me tears now slowly falling down his cheek. "No it isn't." He said coldly forcing himself up and leaving my room.