Speaking feels difficult,
Words unable to escape my lips,
So I write them down instead,
Words my eyes can't convey to you,
Words your eyes might never read.
Perhaps you won't understand,
Perhaps I feel ashamed,
Or maybe I'm afraid that the words
That come from my heart for you,
For you, they're merely words,
That you might not grasp their depth,
Or perhaps you might understand,
But your heart doesn't value them.
You don't know,
I recite your name like a prayer,
In every prayer I beg God to grant me you,
And I've started praying for you in the early hours of dawn.
Every day begins with you,
And ends with you,
At night, your memories keep me awake,
I count the stars,
And when sleep finally comes,
I find myself lost in your dreams.
I find no respite from your thoughts,
As the world condemns me to solitude.
....
Bolna mushkil lagta hai,
Jo alfaaz mere lab bol nahi sakte,
Wo alfaaz main likh ti hu,
Jo alfaaz likhti hu tumhe dekha nahi sakti hu,
Shayad tumhe samajh na aaye,
Shayad mujhe sharam aati hai,
Ya shayad main darr ti hu ke jo alfaaz mere dil se tere liye nikal ti hai,
Tumhare liye bas alfaaz hi hai,
Ke tumhe unki gehraiya samajh na aaye,
Ya tumhe alfaaz samajh aa to jaye,
Lekin tumhare dil mein wo alfaaz koi keemat aur haisiyat na rakhe,
Tumhe meri jazbaato ki qadr naho,
Tumhe kya patta ke main tumhaari naam ki tasbih parr ti hu,
Har namaz ki dua mein main tujhe Rab se maangu,
Subha tahajjud mein dua maangni shuru kar di hai,
Mera har din tujh se shuru hota hai,
Aur tujh pe hi khatam,
Raato ko tumhari yaadein mujhe jagga ke rakh ti hai,
Ke main sirf taarein ginn ne ke qabil reh jaati hu,
Jab neend aa jaati hai,
Tumhaare khwabo mein mubtala hoti hu,
Tumhari khayalo se fursat hi na mille mujhe,
Ke duniya ruswa ho gayi meri ghair hazari se.
