I honestly feed from her acting like she's on her period sometimes I find it cute when shes entitled she rarely acts entitled,I love it here but there are things I dont like for example after her petty outburst of me not waking her up and making me apologise to her again for shit I didn't understand which was no big deal ,using up my break time that I really needed before my next client who was kind enough not to show up ,She just gave me silent treatment.Soo I also won't talk too if she doesn't let up by tomorrow I'll break ice and swallow my ego.
How it works with me and Maya:
This is preety much normal traits in persons who are borderline but bruv we just became good . I understand the pathophysiology of her disorder yes but sometimes this is just hard because even though she's my girlfriend sometimes I have to be kind of a therapist too I just can't escape and therapy is in me sometimes it just comes out
I have my own psychological issues that some of her traits tend to trigger though I'm more quite compared to her I just wish I wouldn't have to deal with this shit
I know I was supposed to go to her place and try to talk to her but I am tired I just took this time to have a little space before I have to deal with this particular issue
Maya is reactive and sensitive and im quite NPD which kinda helps us deal with each other and a perfect match.I hate been emotional I've noticed she's trying to get me to be emotional , she's trying to get my attention more and i dont know if i am giving that, having that I've Been giving that due to my dismissive behaviour making me look nonchalant.
I'm addicted to the adrenaline and fire in this relationship and she is too my shitty personality excites her and her emotional ass excites me too , her mental health really affects me deeply but also i dont want her to feel like its a burden to me since shes destructive to her self
I hate it when she relates my NPD personality to me been a therapist that deals with trauma and disorders mostly topics that are cause by personalities insulting,I know I'm the least person anyone would go to for advise that's why i separate work and personal to avoid bias and to help find me clients that like my style of therapy no bias
We need fucking communication since I'm not ready to let go nor is she ready we have to learn to live with each others disorders I feel like am the greatest experiment in my life many shrinks would pay premium to observe me and Maya coexist in a relationship
But I like that she doesn't act like am evil like my other relationships we are actually a match we can really handle each other she knows not to bruise my ego too much since that could break us and I know not to tick her off too much .
We know when is playing time and when it's not playtime I honestly love it here it's not that bad there's no victim we both can go head to head soo it's always a fair fight
Damn I love this medicated woman
