Maya's pov
I woke up from a wet floor that I passed out and for the first time I wished I didn't remember now I need to clean this floor up she really fucked up my TV and station she's an op .
I'm feeling soo overwhelmed I can't scream I just take a bite at my arm as hard as I can breaking skin then stopping , this floor feels soo wet " she's going to leave this time" i tell myself as i start sweating bullets
I try practicing my affirmations calming my self down I need my pills as I come down ABIT enough to stand and go to the bathroom where I keep my meds and I hurriedly reached for some popping them down
I think I took too many I didn't check I think as I dragged myself to my bedroom dropping myself to my bed as I start feeling my buzz kicking in I can't feel my face I pass out.
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After hours passed out I suddenly wake up it's fucking early why in the hell is my head heavy as hell I need to induce some vomiting I think as I struggle myself out of the bed to the bathroom to vomit.
My throats on fire
I really fucked up let me call my therapist
" Maya ?" she calls out immediately after picking up and I immediately start breaking down
" I fucked up Shel " I say and I feel her waking up
" I need you to calm down first okay? " she asked softly and I start trying our breathing exercises which she joins in and I start calming down wiping my face
" I beat her real good shel " I mentioned and chuckled slightly and she's just quite
I definitely have a problem
" say something please" I begged
" what do u want me to say that you don't know Maya , do you need me upping Ur dosage to previous?" she asked in a serious tone on god I don't want to be confined
" I don't know since I stopped cutting and pulling hair I've been angry " I tried to explain hoping she'll understand
" Soo u split have you been taking your mood stabilisers?"she asked again concerned in a serious tone
" shel I was doing great in my drug vacation until she started pissing me off" I explained frustrated thinking about it
" vacation huhh? drug and therapy vacation?" she asked again
" I'm sorry okay I just wanted to feel normal for a minute I was cool I even stopped cutting it's been a while now u know I hate how I need meds " I expressed crying myself out running my hands on my head
" Congratulations on the milestone I'm proud of you" she cheerfully told me making me smile I really achieved something even though it's for the wrong reasons
" As for you and Ur gf all I'll tell u is that you need to decide on whether you're cool with you two abusing each other or no "
" What do you mean decide "
" It means decide u've talked about her having narcissistic tendencies "
" Yeah and that don't mean I should decide shit shel are you trying to break me and her up cause IM NOT DOING THAT BRUH " I warned her cause the fuck she's thinking
"Okay then tell me how you fucked up then?" she asked and I just had nothing to say
" I'll try talking to her soo I can say sorry and we fix it and she better be compliant otherwise she'll piss me off and catch this hands"I ranted serious asf
" Maya?! " she called out seriously
" What should I do then? " I asked not knowing what to do
" Instead of violence since u seem not ready to let her go how bout y'all get therapy together " she suggested
" Something else please " I refused that
" Once y'all have calmed down work things out as adults or leave each other alone and stop with giving each other PTSD " she said seriously
" That's sounds better" I cooked
" One more thing" she states
" Damn shel what else I'm feeling good now thanks can I go ? and yess I'll come see you"I playfully joked
" You're welcome but that's not it"
" Play with your meds one more time and I'll write u off for confinement " she seriously said damn what's it with women in my life giving me ultimatums
" Damn shel , I'll deffo come" I tell her hanging up I'll have to go see her and bargain but right now let me get my girl back
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Jill pov
Since I ran off from her place she's been trying to get to me but not today satan she's just spamming me I feel like blocking her already i cant stop crying
♥️♥️♥️ : please reply to me I'm trying to get consent to come see u and u're dead ignoring consent request
This woman's audacity is on another level and am the manipulative one at this point my therapist has to accept insurance since looks like I'll need it for life
♥️♥️♥️ : am done giving you space acting like uve never put Ur hands on me
♥️♥️♥️ : drop the attitude oml
♥️♥️♥️ : I'll ask you one more time for consent if you don't reply I'll assume u want to be manhandled into speech
Me : 👍
I'm really exhausted from all this fighting I don't understand why we just can't be good without her pulling shit talking about I have an attitude, she's dead a fucking clown bruh
